Sunday, January 2, 2005

After shock!

He was trying to reach me that night of 12/31. He'd wanted to fetch me up at my apartment. And might as well celebrate with them as they welcome new year. But, I was down dead sleeping. I remember that i was crying the whole day because I thought I'd be alone. He said that they might be back on the 1st. So, I wasn't expecting anything. I called him when i finally read his message at around 12:30am. But unfortunately, I couldn't get through. Some sort of Network busy. To make it short, i wasn't able to spent time with his family.

But then again, the year started out pretty well. At last, I had quality time with him. We just hang out at Power Plant Mall. Since it's Metro Manila Film Fest, we watched Spirit of the Glass. It's his choice. He's into horror movies. Oh God! I miss kermit! It's really mixed emotions. Being with someone you really love is far better than heaven...

There are moments of sadness, triumphs, challenges, love and hatred last 2004:
  • It still pains me so much considering that my son could've been 2 years old. I tried so hard to accept that it's his 2nd death anniversary. I still cried. Only God knows when will i recover from such distress...
  • I met new friends from #kolehiyo Jay-An, Wah, Budji, Anne, Jhay, etc.
  • We reconciled after 7 months of painful and traumatic separation.
  • I resigned in my previous company. I left my comfort zone. My friends... my so-called family! I really thought I could never get thru..
  • I lost some of my friends... or should i say, it was the end of one good friendship! Never really imagined, it would end that way. Better yet, instead keeping the pain.
  • Our boutique was robbed 3 times last year. My Mom & Dad recovered the loses before the end of the year. Dad, Ferdie & Pepper joined PREX with Mom's influence.
  • It's already a year when Argel (Rochele's bf) left for Japan. It reminded me how she hides the sadness in her eyes.
  • Scott & Eden got married. And the latter bore a pretty baby girl.
  • I was able to meet new friends here in my new company like Raj, Aian, Magne, Dickie, Jill, Pam, Marbee, Toni, Lui, Jun, Homey, Marcus, Gerum, Bo, Kwinny, Sara, etc. who made me realize that life's still worthwhile.
  • I finally had my break. Something that I dreamed of, and something that i really wanted to become... So, Icey started to build dreams again... Started to trust... and the journey began...
Although, the year started favorable on my part. I still look forward to a brighter one ahead...
I'll do my best to work on my New Year's Resolution. That's a sure thing! (hopefully!) harharhar!!!

Saturday, January 1, 2005

My friend Dickie

This is my friend Dickie... He's one really great guy. Like Aian, he's also insisting me to post our pic here in blogspot. So, there you go... Hope he'll like this. I'd really love to add his solo pic inside the Training room 3 over Citibank. But, i'm so sure that he'll be mad at me. So, i decided to post this pic taken at the lounge area. We were waiting for our TQA Meeting. Well, infairness to Dickie. He's good at it! He's really goodlooking. One thing that could remind me of him would be Tina Arena. Surely! He truly loves her. Or should i say.. He adores her! Infact, her album is playing over & over again here at Allied Bank. I could almost memorize her songs. "Wouldn't you know it if I've lost my courage. Isn't that funny, me lost for words..."

So much about Dickie... Just finished fixing my blog. You'll surely like its new look! After spending like 4hrs. I finally got the codes. I got the skins from Xanga which is my old blog. I really like this better. Though, there are still bugs. Yet, i'm working on it! At least, it's a good start! I admit! Hell no.. i'm not good at html!

Friday, December 31, 2004

Irony

Oh shoot! It's really a f*cking day! It's like everything messed up.


First, just received a message from kermit. They'll be back in manila tomorrow. Unavoidable circumstances happened so we won't go to Subic. Duh! I was alone last Christmas. That only means that i'll be all by myself welcoming new year. I was so excited to be with him and his family. That excitement gave me sleepless nights. Now, i'd spend the holiday alone! Why it always hafta be like that? Good Heavens! I'm showered with bad luck.

Second, when i got to the office, i just found out that out of 3 teams that i'm handling, 2 of 'em were off. Bullsh*t!!! So, how would I meet the scan goal? Should I create some sort of miracles?

Third, when i decided to scan, my pc isn't working properly. NICE system's still down. Great!!! So, how am i suppose to monitor calls? Luckily, Wacks from IT helped me out. He installed screenshot on some of the agent's pcs. And even configured the hardphone so i can do remote monitoring. Apparently, it didn't work out well. I settled for live monitoring instead.

I'm not complaining about how my day started! Well, not to reiterate about the bad luck. Things happen when you least expect it. Just received a heads up from Jill. I won't go into details yet. Perhaps, it really made my day bright.

Thursday, December 30, 2004

Our B-O-S-S

"Through ups and downs... Rain or shine... Til we have our own families... We'll always be friends!" I just heard this line from a new found friend. It didn't make an impact at all. It brings me back old memories. Memories of friendship that I thought would never end. Bawat oras sama-sama! Where did the friendship go? In just a zap, it's gone! We called ourselves BOSS. We had good times. Bad times were all endured all for the sake friendship.

"There are so many instances when i'm alone and memories are flashing back to me. Who can ever forget all of those sleepless H. Santos nights. Those funny antics that we do together... Those middle-of-the-night-eat-outs... Those no-one-can-sleep conversations... Yes, there were indeed sad and trying moments. Nevertheless, it is nothing to what we have discovered, to what we have endured. I'll always cherish those moments."

I felt your sadness, your pain, your glory! Your victory was my victory! Your failure was my failure. You were not just my friends... you were once my family.

You guys got hurt.. so did i! Time will heal the wounds... As to when, i dunno! But, I'll keep hoping.

Tuesday, December 28, 2004

just another ordinary day

As for Aian's request, I posted our picture together. This picture was taken when we were still new with AT&T. You'd never imagined how we met. His boyfriend is my friend and also our probationary member in Teatro Lasalliana. It was the second day in ACS when i saw him. Once you see Aian, you'll never mistaken him as bisexual coz he has manly gestures. So, when he said that his bf's name is Jonex. I just scream with all my might "SARMIENTO???" Then he said yes. So, there.. we became friends! Last Christmas, he just gave a big white scented candle from bright ideas. There's a story behind that candle but i'm not gonna divulge it. It's a shame on my part... hehehehe... Sounds interesting huh?! La lang, kwento ko lng! Coz he's so kulet! He's just asking how come our pic isn't here in my blog. See?!!

Oh well! It's a very tiring day! NICE system isn't working pretty well. Most of the recordings are not finished! It's like you hafta guess what happened to the call. Shoot!!!

Too bad! I'm starting to get a migraine. I should get outta here!

Monday, December 27, 2004

Miss India



Raj asked me why am i so happy and alive today. Yet, it's just a cover up. The truth of the matter is.. i really wanna tremble down of boredom. I never felt so empty til now. I'm trying to condition myself that i'm happy. But the sense of longing still exists. My family went to province. They'd be back after new year. I was thinking if i'd go home but that would just make me more empty.

Well, i made some modifications in my blog. See?! It has its new look! Thanks to Gian. i took so much of his time to help me. He's such a good looking guy with a good heart. (Wow!) mwah mwah mwah. Thanks so much dude! you just made my day!

I was with Ron's team at Sbarro's. It was his treat. That's what it takes to be part of the team wherein the team manager is really munificent. hehehe... I was monitoring calls. And the last thing i knew, they're dragging me to Glorietta. It was a hella fun! Now I'm thinking!!! Isn't it a bribe or something? (peace Ron!)

Sunday, December 26, 2004

obssession

I'm not fond of reading books unless it's motivational like "Follow your heart" by Andrew Matthews. Uhm! Actually, there are 2 books that i really like: "Anne Frank" and "Les Miserables" by Victor Hugo. I dunno! But, i was really inspired of Dan Brown's Da Vinci Code. Thanks to Raj & Jill. They insisted me to read it. And you bet! Like everybody else who read it, i became curious. I surfed the internet about Holy Grail and The Last Supper. And i was so amazed after researching. The next thing i knew, i was reading Angels & Demons which he also wrote. Dammit! I should've read it first! It was Robert Langdon's first adventure. Because of that obsession to his books, I just finished reading Digital Fortress. It's really fast paced, very informative and full of excitement. The twist of the story is really remarkable that of his other books. Yup! I'm planning to read his Deception Point... and IT'S A MUST!