unfinished business

I'm sick and tired finding the codes so i can add my playlist here in my blog. Finally, i gave up. I'll just let it go. I don't care anymore if i can't attach the codes in my blog. Nothing to lose! The hell i care! This is just a blog! Does it matter? My productivity suffered. (as if) I still have the most number of scans. The truth of the matter is i'm exceeding the goal. hehehehe. I'm having difficulties pulling out the agents for coaching. Resource center won't allow me to pull out anybody because of the call volume. So, i stayed in the office, waited for the agents to finish their calls and gave the feedback after their shift.

Requiem

I just watched Double Jeopardy by Ashley Judd. It made me cry how she longed for her son while she was in prison for 6 years. It made me even feel ill how the movie ended.

I couldn't help but to cry my heart out. I miss my baby Wacks. If only he's still here... i will never let him go. Fate brought me lots of pains for 3 years. Loneliness binds the soul... Deterioration of undying laughters... Maybe, i'm nothing compared to what i was then. Maybe, i'm useless compared to what i have dreamed before... Sometimes, you just don't know if luck is playing on you.

Almost fours years ago when she gave up her career, her family, her life. That P-test almost lost her sanity. She didn't know where to go, where should she run to, or where should she start? Some friends told her to carry on, some said she should get rid of "it". 

She made a not-so-easy-decision for a girl like her who had lots of dreams. Yes! She would keep him.. "There's already a life inside me that i should take care of!" Being pregnant was never easy. There were moments of instability, moments wherein you don't have the will to survive. Yet, she carried it on. He was always there for her. He never stopped caring, loving and understanding what she went thru.. Then, her "serenity" was born on the 19th of February of 2002. She cried when she saw him. Tears of joy that she could never explain. It's worth fighting for all this time. She felt certain happiness staring over his pretty face and could still remember his tiny hands touching hers. The scent of a baby that always made her day. He's her life... her dream... her all! 

But then, he's gone! After 9 days of being with him, God had took him from her. She wanted to die... yet, she anguished everything and tried to fight back... She almost lost her sanity...

Few years passed... yet, the girl still feel the pain. She still feels the same grief and mournful sorrows. She's still fighting. Though there are endless questions... Questions that were left unanswered...

Shuteye

For some strange reasons, I woke up past 6am. Only had almost 5hrs of sleep. I reached my bag and look for the vcds i borrowed from Kwinny and Bo. It was Swordfish by Hugh Jackman and Halle Berry. It didn't impress me when i finished the movie. Then i watched Something's Gotta Give. It's a feel-good movie of Dianne Keaton and oh shoot... just forgot the name of the actor. Sheez!! After that, i watched 8 episodes of Season 5 CSI Las Vegas. Though i already watched it when i bought it for my own Christmas present, i still enjoyed it. I'm into investigative stories and crime scenes uplifts my adrenalin except of course for blood. Eeew... My friend from highschool just called me up. They heard i'm in town and they wanted to drop by. So, i've been awake all day. I got my sleep at 5pm.

I'm home at last

I finally arrived home around 5pm. I didn't bring my laundry. It's a bright idea. I would not want to travel carrying a luggage of laundry. Duh?! Hell no!!! I found myself rushing to the fridge and get something to eat. Too bad coz i hafta have it cooked. Nobody's there but me. Obviously, I don't know how to cook. And that's my problem. 

So, I just settled with a slice of choc mousse and a soda. Flipped on my remote control, tried to find something to watch. Then, I pampered myself with sleep. It was 10pm when Mom knocked at my room. I woke up. She just asked me to eat and go to shower before i should go to sleep. Hello?! Mom, I just woke up. But then again it's Mom. Just found myself turning off the tv. Rushing through our dining. They just prepared my favorites... yeheeeeeeeeeyyy... I'm finally home..

Trapped

Supposedly, i'd go home to Sta. Rosa. Because Mom is freaking out on

her txt message the other day. She asked if i have no plans of going back home.

It's a very long story. To make the story short, Mom didn't know that i left home when they left for grandma's house. Going back, i planned to go home yesterday. But, I was trapped with a supcall. huwaaaahhh... I was left with no choice. I'm the only one left who could take that call. Windy said, it's just a simple billing concern. So, being a good samaritan, I accepted the call. Yet I wonder why Mom didn't bother texting me the whole day.

Just had a haircut with my roommates. It was Maya's idea. It's new year, so i guess, i should have a new look. Everybody agreed that we all go to the salon.

Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Why the player isn't working on Bo's and Marcus blog. Sh*t!!! It's making me sick!

Addiction

I woke up late than usual. I've been suffering insomnia for the past few days. And, i don't know why is that so. Jill and I went to starbucks for coffee. We saw Winnie who's resigning after No call, no show. She was with her bf (Mike) and Pyke. I felt certain sadness knowing that we'll have less time to go out. 

I wanted to utter so many things. Yet i was left unspoken. I can't blame them for leaving. They deserve to move on and live a better life and career growth outside the company. I promised myself that I'll have less talks, so less mistakes for this year. Maybe Maya's right, i should know how to play the game. 

I'm starting to get so addicted with the online quizzes. Here are the results:

What's Your Element?

Your Element Is Earth

You excel at planning and strategizing. You could be a champ at chess or Survivor. Well grounded, you are able to be realistic and rationalize. On the inside, you have a hard core. It's tough to phase you. You are super productive, and you are able to think anything through. Focused and super charged, your instincts are a good guide for your next step.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

Your Dominant Intelligence is Linguistic Intelligence

You are excellent with words and language. You explain yourself well. An elegant speaker, you can converse well with anyone on the fly. You are also good at remembering information and convincing someone of your point of view. A master of creative phrasing and unique words, you enjoy expanding your vocabulary. You would make a fantastic poet, journalist, writer, teacher, lawyer, politician, or translator.

What Number Are You?

You Are the Achiever

3 You're confident and competent - with a lot of energy. Eager to reach your goals, you are ambitious and competitive. You are good at motivating yourself and motivating others. You're also a charmer, with a great sense of humor.

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My dost...

This day is about to end. Couldn't think of anything to write. Sometimes it really happens. You wanted to say so much but you're running out of words. That's what i'm feeling right now. I guess I'm just too overwhelmed. Everything's happening in a proper order and timing. Let me breathe first...

Aryt! Good thing that I came at the office at 10pm (though my shift starts at 12am). I met the deadline for the Agent's Developmental Report. I gave it to all the Ops. Sup. that I'm handling. I did 15 scans (10's our daily goal). So, I still had time to relax. I'm with Raj, Jill & Magne during our 1hr break. It's nice to know we have the same wave length. There's an incident happened with Raj that made us laugh our visceras out. We told ourselves: "NO SARCASM ALLOWED." Raj & I share the same New Year's Resolution: "I'll be less rude for the year." (hehehehe). Well, my stay with ACS becomes so light whenever they're around. We just don't talk about boys or some crap. Indeed, we talk about life. We can just talk about anything and everything under the sun. I stayed in the office until 10pm because I had to do coaching/feedback. Kwinny (my dormmate) and I went home at around 10:30am.

I'm surprised when i got some sort of questionnaires on my email. So, i followed the link. I decided to post it here...

What Kind of Soul Are You?

You Are a Hunter Soul

You are driven and ambitious - totally self motivated to succeed. Actively working to achieve what you want, you are skillful in many areas.You are a natural predator with strong instincts ... and more than a little demanding.You are creative, energetic, and an extremely powerful force.An outdoors person, you like animals and relate to them better than people.You tend to have an explosive personality, but also a good sense of humor.People sometimes see you as arrogant or a know it all.You tend to be a bit of a loner, though you hate to be alone.

What 2004 Hit Song Are You?

I Miss You by Blink 182

"The unsuspecting victimOf darkness in the valleyWe can live like Jack and Sally if we wantWhere you can always find me" You grew up a lot in 2004. And it was mostly a very good thing.