Thursday, May 24, 2012

Smile

Thank you for making me smile...

You're better then the best
I'm lucky just to linger in your light
Cooler than the flip side
Of my pillow, that's right

Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where
You send me, lets me know that it's okay
Yeah, it's okay
And the moments where my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed
Sing like bird, dizzy in my head
Spin like a record, crazy on a Sunday night

You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Oh, you make me smile

Even when you're gone,
Somehow you come along just like
A flower pokin' through the sidewalk crack
And just like that
You steal away the rain, and just like that

You make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed
Sing like bird, dizzy in my head
Spin like a record, crazy on a Sunday night

You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Oh, you make me smile

Don't know how I lived without you
'Cause every time that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile

You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild

You make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed
Sing like bird, dizzy in my head
Spin like a record, crazy on a Sunday night

You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Oh, you make me smile
(Oh, you make me smile)
Oh, you make me smile
(Oh, you make me smile)
Oh, you make me smile

Friday, May 18, 2012

Primus Amor

As I see him across the street, my heart starts to beat so fast. So fast, that I could almost hear it! How could that be? It's been years we haven't spoken. And it's been years of hatred.

It was summer back then... He's standing infront of our house. Waiting for me to come out. But, I didn't! Why should I? What would I say? How am I suppose to act? I'm only 16. Mom will be really furious if she finds out about John. He needs to leave. Luckily, Lana, my cousin spoke to him. And in split seconds, he left. I knew what she said. We have talked about it so many times. "If he comes here, tell him I'm not home. I'm not around!" 

As I approached him, I was trying so hard not to show emotions. Eventhough, I feel shaky. He's grown so much! C'mon, what the hell?!! Stop! Stop! Inhale. Exhale. I keep on telling myself to act naturally. But, I almost choke when he grasp my arm. Silence. I don't know what to say, neither does he. What else is there to talk about? I'm not even sure why I'm here. Didn't I hate him for years?

"5 years after we graduate from College. I'll marry you! With our titles, sounds nice in our wedding invitation." Out of nowhere he gasps in the midnight sky. Shocked as I am, I didn't utter anything at all. No words to reciprocate as he's waiting for my response. Without a word, he pull me back in his arms. His embrace is so warm. I could almost die... Such a perfect night for a teenage dream. I wish this moment will last forever.

I shook my head. I didn't hear him at all. When I stare back at him, REALITY strikes! "You have no idea what I've been through. You didn't realize what you've done to me after I heard the news. How could you do that to me? I was so young then. You mean everything to me. You were mylife. And you took that away from me?" I found myself screaming in tears.

"You left just like that. Not a word. I searched for you. I called you many times. But they said you're not coming home. In years, I've been trying to keep in touch, yet you said you're happily married. What am I suppose to do? You kept on pushing me away." John spoke softly and gently. 

That's my cue. I stood up from where I sat down, and aggressively wiped my tears. "At least now, we have a closure. I just wanted to understand. I already got my answer. I'll go back to my world, and go back to yours."

They said young love is sweet love. But for me, I guess it's not. Just when I thought, all wounds have been healed by time. There was I, painfully recalled all the heartaches I felt more than a decade ago. It's time for me to let go... Let go of all the broken dreams and promises. 

They say love knows no boundaries. I say it really has. Two people can be together without being inlove - for the sake of emotional security and financial stability. And there goes two people who deeply love each other, but can't be together because of the boundaries set by the norms of society. 

But I'd say Love never ends. It isn't selfish! Not rude. It does not insist in its own way. It rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things and endure all things... Love still exists EVEN ONLY FROM A DISTANCE...

To My Readers - I apologize for the lapses in my writing. This is my first attempt in so many years to come up with a short story. Practice makes perfect. Who knows? In my next entry, it's gonna be superb!!! Share what you think! I'll be glad to hear your comments. --- itsmeellezyh

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Wake up, Princess!

Love. Very strong word. Though not just a mere word, it's indeed an "action" word. You don't just say I LOVE YOU for some b*llsh*t reason, or say it because you're fond of saying it. Imagine yourself being introduced to someone, and the person says I Love You on your first date. What would you say? What would you feel? Would you believe it? 

Damn! It will scare the hell out of me, seriously! Scary, isn't it?! There is no such thing as love as first sight. That's crap! Whoever invented that phrase overly sensationalized the "thought." It's just a pigment of one's imagination. There's always a period of getting-to-know-you stage before you can finally realize you're falling for someone. Yes, there maybe an attraction at the first glance. But, love?! Hell, no!!! 

Ladies, be very careful! A guy may even promise to give you heaven and earth. Do yourself a favor! Do not fall for that trap! He only wants to get into your pants. Seek for a man who respects you, and will not promise anything and everything to please you. Men master the art of pretenses. 

When I say men, it only pertain to chauvinistic, pimps, players, thugs, ballers and shot callers. An honorable man protects you and your feelings, but not play with it. An honorable man will never lie to you regardless if it's a white-lie. If he did it once, and you let it pass then don't expect he's going to change for you. Because he will never be. 

Drop that idea that if you play a martyr (girlfriend or wife) would mean he'll realize that, and change for you. Change comes from within. As long as you're allowing him to treat you that way, you're permitting him to torture you emotionally. Certainly, you'll end up crying. DO NOT EVER COMPLAIN ON WHAT YOU PERMIT! 

Choosing to be fooled by this type of a guy won't get you anywhere, just in bed or in despair.

Ladies tend to cling on to a relationship not because they've been fooled. I don't believe that! 

We know exactly if someone's fooling us, or lying to us for that matter. Ladies have a strong gut-feel. It's innate! But, you want to know the truth?! We just make our self believe that he is faithful, and he loves you. Truth of the matter is, he's not! Alright, you caught him once cheating on you, and he denied. But, you know exactly he did. You'd rather believe he didn't cheat on you, than admit he did. One way or another, you're just creating a monster out of him. 

Do not be a masochist!!! You're beautiful who deserves respect and right kind of love... Time to wake up from long sleep, Princess! Your real and true Prince Charming awaits you. Do not look for love, it will soon find you!
Love is not being insistent. Love is not an obligation. Love is not a responsibility. It is not selfish and possessive. Love shows respect and trust. Accept for who you are, and whom you are not. Love doesn't tolerate wrong-doings. It helps you to become a better person. It doesn't cheat, lie or humiliate you. But, that's selfishness and ego!

Thursday, May 3, 2012

The Link



Professor : You are a Christian, aren’t you, son ?

Student : Yes, sir.

Professor: So, you believe in GOD ?

Student : Absolutely, sir.

Professor : Is GOD good ?

Student : Sure.

Professor: Is GOD all powerful ?

Student : Yes.

Professor: My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to GOD to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But GOD didn’t. How is this GOD good then? Hmm?

(Student was silent.)

Professor: You can’t answer, can you ? Let’s start again, young fella. Is GOD good?

Student : Yes.

Professor: Is satan good ?

Student : No.

Professor: Where does satan come from ?

Student : From … GOD …

Professor: That’s right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?

Student : Yes.

Professor: Evil is everywhere, isn’t it ? And GOD did make everything. Correct?

Student : Yes.

Professor: So who created evil ?

(Student did not answer.)

Professor: Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don’t they?

Student : Yes, sir.

Professor: So, who created them ?

(Student had no answer.)

Professor: Science says you have 5 Senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son, have you ever seen GOD?

Student : No, sir.

Professor: Tell us if you have ever heard your GOD?

Student : No , sir.

Professor: Have you ever felt your GOD, tasted your GOD, smelt your GOD? Have you ever had any sensory perception of GOD for that matter?

Student : No, sir. I’m afraid I haven’t.

Professor: Yet you still believe in Him?

Student : Yes.

Professor : According to Empirical, Testable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says your GOD doesn’t exist. What do you say to that, son?

Student : Nothing. I only have my faith.

Professor: Yes, faith. And that is the problem Science has.

Student : Professor, is there such a thing as heat?

Professor: Yes.

Student : And is there such a thing as cold?

Professor: Yes.

Student : No, sir. There isn’t.

(The lecture theater became very quiet with this turn of events.)

Student : Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don’t have anything called cold. We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat, but we can’t go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.

(There was pin-drop silence in the lecture theater.)

Student : What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?

Professor: Yes. What is night if there isn’t darkness?

Student : You’re wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light. But if you have no light constantly, you have nothing and its called darkness, isn’t it? In reality, darkness isn’t. If it is, well you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn’t you?

Professor: So what is the point you are making, young man ?

Student : Sir, my point is your philosophical premise is flawed.

Professor: Flawed ? Can you explain how?

Student : Sir, you are working on the premise of duality. You argue there is life and then there is death, a good GOD and a bad GOD. You are viewing the concept of GOD as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, Science can’t even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing.

Death is not the opposite of life: just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?

Professor: If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes, of course, I do.

Student : Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?
(The Professor shook his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument was going.)

Student : Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor. Are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a scientist but a preacher?

(The class was in uproar.)

Student : Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor’s brain?

(The class broke out into laughter. )

Student : Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor’s brain, felt it, touched or smelt it? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established Rules of Empirical, Stable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?

(The room was silent. The Professor stared at the student, his face unfathomable.)

Professor: I guess you’ll have to take them on faith, son.

Student : That is it sir … Exactly ! The link between man & GOD is FAITH. That is all that keeps things alive and moving.

P.S.

I believe you have enjoyed the conversation. And if so, you’ll probably want your friends / colleagues to enjoy the same, won’t you?

Forward this to increase their knowledge … or FAITH.

By the way, that student was EINSTEIN.

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

What are you? A f*ckin' bird!!!

Like an ostrich with its head in the sand. You who have been trying to remain blissfully ignorant of a situation. But hiding from it won't make it go away. 


Just because you pretend you don't have a problem doesn't mean you don't have a problem. But the good news is that "the problem" you have isn't really a problem at all, but an opportunity. Once you start exploring your options for dealing with it, the situation will open a door to something wonderful and unanticipated.


Now, think!!!

Monday, April 30, 2012

My One Last Rhapsody

Recently, I've been surrounded with good and happy people which makes it a lot easier to uncarry the burdens. I TOOK THAT first step. And now, it's up to me to stick up with that...

At times, I really wanted to scream and shout to tell everyone that I do not deserve to be treated just like that. I have done nothing wrong. But yes, I preferred to be silent. I stayed calm. Chaos couldn't be taken out by calling out for a war. I somehow realized, there's no need to explain myself. I may please some, but most of them will just believe the unknown. It doesn't matter what has been said, who said it, and to whom it was said... Bottomline is, it hit me so hard! I'm just human! And yes, I really wanted to retaliate, and revenge for that matter. If I did, what does that make me?!

A friend of mine once told me: "We have to be logical at all times." She stressed out a very good point. In all situations, we have to think first before we take appropriate actions. It's being mature! One way or another, if we use our logic then we'll be able to set aside all our emotions and come up with a sound decision.

It took a lot of patience to stay calm. It's in my nature to have a high tolerance for rude people. One day, the truth will come out. For sure, "to you" who's been treating me badly. In time, your own accusations will definitely slap and hit through your own face. Well as for me, I've been awakened... And I have found out the truth that's why I took that first step. It wasn't an easy decision. It took a lot of courage and determination.

I DO NOT BELIEVE IN DESTINY. But, I believe in karmic reaction. If we do good deeds, we'll earn our reward. If we do bad, then we'll pay for it in due time. I have paid my debts, and I learned so much from it.

So now, I'm looking forward for serendipity - "happy accident" or "pleasant surprise"; specifically, the accident of finding something good or useful without looking for it. All of these burdens will be over soon... And when that time comes, it's gonna be worth all the pain.

Sunday, April 22, 2012

Butterflies from Heaven

A death in the family leaves a void that cannot be filled. No one can ever take the place of this individual in the world. However, there must be time to mourn the fact that things will never be the same. One minute he was here and now he is gone. The human mind must be allowed to sit with this reality. Mourning is a necessary part of the human experience. If it is ignored, a general feeling of sadness may pervade the whole family.

My eyes filled up with tears as I heard the news
It never occurred to me, how much I could lose 
I find myself wishing that it wasn't real
Every time I think about it, pain is all I can feel
Tears fall from my eyes, I can barely see
But my heart tells me that he'll always be with me
I’m glad he feels no pain now-he lives in a perfect land
I can still feel the soft touch on my shoulder of his loving hand
I lie in bed and cry at night
And I don’t feel any better in the morning light
And I will love and miss him forever
Until the day we are again together.
Together in that perfect place above,
Filled with caring, sharing and love
But until that day comes- I will wipe my tears away.
And hopefully see him again someday

A thousand times we needed you
A thousand times we cried
If love alone could have saved you
you never would have died
A heart of gold stopped beating
two twinkling eyes closed to rest
God broke our hearts to prove he only took the best
never a day goes by that you’re not in my heart and my soul.

We'll miss you MJ! You'll now be with my lil angel...