The Time Traveler

When HEROES started to air on tv, I've always been fascinated and amazed with Hero Nakamura's superpower. Out of all the great powers you can get, his is what I admired most. Why? Well, we all wish at one point to travel back in time for whatever reasons we may have... Could it be to correct that one mistake we have done in the past; To reunite with our lost loved ones; To just have one more chance to experience the same adrenalin rush: To anticipate what's going to happen in the future; To alter that one incident in our life that could entirely change our present. There are so many reasons, I bet. I'd like to  believe at one point, we all have dreamed of this.

I for myself have always been dreaming this could be real. Though in reality this concept doesn't exist. But hey, we're all dreamers believe me! How cool is that to rewind a certain scenario of your life, or even fast forward to see what happens next or to even pause and play it back after?

If only I could turn back time. Just for one more chance to cradle you in my arms again. I'd trade for anything and everything just to feel your tiny hands again. It's been 10 years now, my sweet lil angel... But still I miss you! Whatever future holds, you'll always be loved and remembered.

Knock! Knock Anonymous!

Okay, so there's another comment waiting to be published. Infact, I've got 4 pending now awaiting for moderation. Tsk! Tsk! Sweetie, I really don't want to be rude so please don't push me.. 

Walang taong perpekto! Hindi ko maintindihan ano ba gusto mo palabasin sa lahat ng mga comments mo. Pulos salita ka! Ayaw mo naman magpakilala. May nagawa ba kong masama sayo? Kung mayroon man, humihingi ako ng pasensya. Tama ka! 2012 na di ba, so let's move on na! Kung ayaw mo pa rin tumigil wala na ko magagawa sayo!

A fight against depression

Here we go again... Time of the year when I usually get depressed. Month of Hearts! Yes, February means so much to me, not because of Valentine's day really but there's more to that. For the past few years, well, almost 10 years now chronic depression hits me during the last few days of January until the end of Feb. There's certain sadness I feel even if I tried to resist. This has to stop... It's just mind over matter!

So, What Exactly is Chronic Depression?

Depression is a mental state characterized by overwhelming feelings of sadness. Most people experience temporary sadness in response to specific events or losses. However, when this sadness persists for an extended period, with symptoms that occasionally subside but often return, it's referred to as chronic depression or dysthymia. While considered a milder form of depression, dysthymia can persist for years, leaving those affected feeling consistently unhappy.

What Causes Dysthymia?

The precise cause of chronic depression is not yet understood. However, certain factors are associated with dysthymia, including high levels of stress, imbalances in brain chemicals, and hereditary factors.

What are the Symptoms of Chronic Depression?

The symptoms of chronic depression are similar to that of major depression. They include:

• Difficulty falling asleep
• Fatigue or low energy levels
• Feelings of worthlessness or excessive guilt
• Loss of interest and enjoyment in activities
• Noticeable physical and mental sluggishness
• Changes in appetite
• Difficulty making decisions, concentrating, or thinking clearly
• Persistent thoughts of death or suicide

I haven't really thought of the last bullet, though. Well, not in many years... This year will be different, and I say it's a MUST. I decided it's best to do something about it — depression doesn't just go away on its own. So, I plan to take these steps to combat depression:

1. I'll incorporate a daily 15- to 30-minute brisk walk, dance, or bike ride into my routine. Regular physical activity can significantly improve mood and overall well-being.
2. I'll prioritize proper nutrition by consuming plenty of fruits and vegetables and maintaining regular meals. Certain foods like papaya, tuna, apples, liver, peaches, mangoes, broccoli, strawberries, whole grains, grapefruit, guava, and whole milk can positively impact mood and energy.
3. I'll pinpoint the situations contributing to my depression and confide in supportive friends or use my online journal as a therapeutic outlet.
4. I'll actively engage my creativity and sense of fun, helping to unlock positive emotions. Whether it's enjoying time at Timezone with my nephews or finding humor in a funny movie, laughter will be key to brightening my mood.
5. I'll practice patience and focus on recognizing the good aspects of life. Reflecting on my strengths, gifts, and blessings will help me persevere through the healing process, knowing that depression takes time to overcome. This too shall pass.

Chronic depression may cast its shadow, but I'm armed with a plan to let the light back in. It's a process that requires patience and self-compassion. But I'm ready to embrace it, armed with the knowledge that this too shall pass.

Here's to brighter days ahead, resilience, and the unwavering belief that we can conquer even the toughest battles.

A bit of Conundrum

Take risks:  if you win, you will be happy; if you lose, you will be wise.

What if we could turn back the dial. Maybe if not for ourselves, but maybe for someone else. Turn back the dial to a time when laughter was easy, and worries and cares were a million miles away. Turn the dial back to that moment right before the pain began. When innocence was lost. What if.

Sometimes i wonder what if this would have been different with us. What if we didn't live so far? What if we hadn't of lied? What if things have changed? But then I realize that I could be here for days going through all the what if's and just have to face reality.

What if it’s time. To break free. Free. Really free. What if. We could really grasp what that means. Then live it.

Men and Marriage

I just want to share this post from FB. (....from a man's point of view  daw) 

Last week we threw a bachelor party for one of our good friends  and then on Saturday afternoon we stood beside him in our tuxes while he and his fiancee said their vows. As I stood up there looking across the crowd, decided that our next topic on this page would definitely talk about marriage. I also realized that a lot of women may not want to hear the truth about men and marriage because the truth is so simple that they could not accept it without questioning their own  relationship. 

But I am here to tell you - DON'T FOOL YOURSELF,  IT'S  NOT THAT COMPLICATED. 

The sad thing about it is that it took a woman  to bring it to my attention. 

I had a close friend of mine tell me that  she was pursuing a stable man with a girlfriend. When I asked her did she  feel wrong about that she said "Shit, a girlfriend ain't nothin  -girlfriends come and go. If the man is established and he isn't either married or engaged, then he is not that serious about her and he is fair game" 

I thought about this for a minute and came to a cold conclusion: IF A MAN IS STABLE IN LIFE AND HE IS IN A RELATIONSHIP AND NOT MARRIED,  THEN IT IS BECAUSE HE IS NOT SURE ABOUT THE WOMAN THAT HE IS WITH. 

He is not willing to commit to her and constantly has his eye open for something  better or is waiting for her to become something better. Pointblank. When he finds a woman that he is satisfied with, he will make her his wife. 

And ladies, sorry to tell some of you, but it doesn't take 4 or 5  years for that man to figure it out. It doesn't take 2 or 3 years  either. The only reason that a man will get married after that long of  a time is because he's tired of looking for something better. And trust me, that's definitely what he was doing all of those years. 

So if you  should happen to find yourself in one of those "long term" relationships then  maybe you should step back, take a look at yourself and wonder what it is  that you're missing that this man is not willing to fully commit. Don't make  excuses to yourself and your girlfriends saying things like "Oh he's waiting  til he gets a better job" or "he's waiting to finish school" or "he's waiting  until he moves from his apartment to a house". DON'T FOOL YOURSELF, IT'S NOT  THAT COMPLICATED. Which one of those things can't be done with a wife or  fiancee by your side? 

So ladies, when you read this think about your  situation and that man that you are living with. Or the one that you spend  many nights over his house or him over yours. Think about your baby's father  that you are still in a sexual relationship with.  Think about your "ex"  that you are in a sexual relationship with.  Think about your  "boyfriend". And definitely think twice before you brag on a  relationship that's a couple of years long and you still have no  commitment. 

Like I've said before, I'm a man and I know the situation.  I've been there and I know that we can come up with some extremely  reasonable excuses, but.....DON'T FOOL YOURSELF, IT'S NOT THAT  COMPLICATED. :)

Just a cup of coffee

"I hate coffee.." Oh well, believe it or not, I never drink coffee before, not until I worked graveyard shift. What else should keep you up from evening til morning? It's not easy to work at night where everybody else is sleeping, and you're just about to start your day. Working at night, sleeping in the morning.. That's been my life for almost 10 years.

You know what's surprising? I stumbled upon this Greek study, and it turns out that sipping just one cup of coffee a day can actually help lower your blood pressure. Yeah, I was just as shocked as you are!

Now, let's talk about coffee. I mean, everybody seems to be head over heels for Starbucks, Seattle's Best, Coffee Bean, and all that jazz. Me? Well, I didn't really care about coffee until I had my first cup. But here's the kicker – I'm a tad paranoid. I won't touch coffee unless I'm the one who bought it from Starbucks or some legit coffee shop. Call me quirky or a total freak, but I've always had this weird idea that someone might sneak something into my cup – you know, like a potion or poison. If I accept coffee from someone else, it means I trust them, and trust isn't something I hand out like candy. It's just the way I roll!

But here's the real revelation. Coffee made me realize something profound. The cup you drink it from? Yeah, it's just an overpriced container that sometimes hides what's inside. What we're really after is the coffee itself, not the cup it comes in. So why do we all go gaga over fancy cups? We even check out each other's cups, for crying out loud!

Now, think about this. Life? That's your coffee. And those jobs, money, and social status? They're just the cups we use to hold our lives. The cup doesn't change the taste of the coffee, right? Similarly, your job or bank balance doesn't define the quality of your life.

Sometimes, we get so caught up admiring the cup that we forget to savor the coffee inside. So, let's focus on enjoying the coffee, not obsessing over the cups! The happiest people aren't necessarily the ones with the fanciest cups; they're the ones who know how to make the best of what they've got. Keep it simple, spread love generously, care deeply, and talk kindly.

Now, if you'll excuse me, I'm daydreaming about a mouthwatering coffee jelly... Mmm...

Things Every Woman Must Know About Men

There are two types of guys out there: the honorable men and the dishonorable dudes. And trust me, you want to know how to tell them apart before you start dating or even thinking about marriage. Your reflection in the mirror will definitely thank you for it.

So, what's the deal with honorable men? Well, they're the real deal. They're the ones who protect you, guard your heart, defend your honor, and champion your well-being in every way – spiritually, mentally, and physically. Choosing an honorable man is choosing a life worth living.

Now, you're not a car, right? So if you run into a guy who treats you like a test drive for his physical desires or plays with your emotions, kindly direct him to a car dealership and say goodbye. 

If a guy pushes for sex and you're not his spouse, he doesn't respect you. Don't become a spoiled, entitled person. Don't expect the wrong person to do the right thing; it's like expecting piranhas not to bite in their waters. If he's not showing love, he's probably not into you. Move on to find real love.

When a man's lost in his own journey, it's time to say goodbye. He should focus on self-discovery, not a relationship.

Oh, and here's a pro tip: Momma's boys? They belong with their moms, not with you. Those umbilical cords? They're not getting cut anytime soon. So, for your own sake, let them trot back to their mommies.

So, keep your standards high, and don't settle for anything less than you deserve. Life is too short to waste on dishonorable dudes, abusive guys, or anyone who doesn't value you. Choose wisely, and true love will find its way to you. Picking dishonorable partners can lead to pain and trouble. Remember, you have a choice.

Now, one last thing – self-love. If you don't have it, take yourself off the market. Seriously, if you don't love yourself, no man can ever truly love you, no matter how great he might be.