More than hatred

I hate you... I despise you... I abhor you...

He is my life. He never changed. I never want to see him, never again. I don't want to be with him, never again. He's such a damn liar! All of his sweet lies. All of his pretentions!

I will never be deceived... never again! Gotta face this alone..

Let me drown in quagmire. Let me die in pain!

In the absence of sound

Afraid! Confused and rattled. What can he say?

He said, it's the fear!!

He never said a word. Never he denied nor confirmed.

Long pause... could be for a lifetime.

Without a word, he slowly approached me . We spoke in silence.

Like this...

if anyone asks you how the perfect satisfaction of all our sexual wanting would look, lift your face and say, like this...

when someone mentions the greatness ot the rightsky, climb up on the roof and dance and say, like this...

if anyone wants to know what 'spirit' means, or what 'God's fragrance' means, lean your face toward him or her, keep your face close.. like this..

when someone quotes the old poetic image about clouds gradually uncovering the moon, slowly loosen knot by knot the strings of your robe. like this..

if anyone wonders how Jesus raised the dead, don't try to explain the miracle...kiss me on the lips... like this.. like this...

if someone asks how tall i am. frown and measure with your fingers the space between the creases on your forehead.. this tall! the soul sometimes leaves the body, then returns.

when someone doesn't believe that, walk back into my house... like this..

i am a sky where spirits live. stare into the deeping blue, while the breeze says a secret.. like this...

when someone asks what there is to do, light the candle in his hand... like this..

when lovers moan, they're telling our story. like this...

when someone asks what it means to die for LOVE, point here in my heart.. like this.. it died, like this.....

- Aian's piece -

Reflection

Pause. It was never what it seemed to be. I see myself in all possibilities. Awkward! Yet, i embraced it all. It was such a sweetful graze wherein it started out with a sweet jazz. Mellow music that seranades my soul. Then, there it goes. Across the moonlit and glass window pane, there he was. Heaven!

I opened my eyes, is it a dream?

I'm swaying, i'm searching... One lost soul! One lost love! A lost dream! Yet, i'm in paradise. He's with me in a sweet fantasy! Illusion can never be real!

Reality strikes!!! I know I have to wake up from long sleep. For only in my dreams, i won't be diagnosed by my own pill... It will never be the same!

Stolen Moments

Am I being paranoid? Are they watching all of my actions. This is very unbecoming.

Yet, I'm not in control. Can no longer think anymore?

Upwards. Inside. 2souls. Then, the clock stopped. It was just 3 seconds of sweetness graze. Seized.

Rhythm came in just right in time. I never asked for love. I'm taking my pill now. I'm getting too addicted to it. Felt the pain, felt the glory, felt the rhythm, felt it all just when i least expect it.

Sweet bliss

He was with me in paradise. We explore the beauty and silence of it. Nurtured each moment as if it was the last. Forget about tomorrows. For it would spoil the instant. we flew away. Only the serenity and beauty of completeness captivated our souls. Discovered how it tucked away in the shadows of the trees, then rediscovered on the smile of flower as the sun penetrated its petals... In the rhythm of the leaves falling upon the stream... In the freedom of the robin as he flew searching.. There we are... Perfect rhythm witnessed by the Roseline...

"It rained. I saw his face through the clouded window pane. It seemed he was crying but it was just the rain falling down the window. I heard his laughter but it was only the thunder repeating itself. I thought, I heard him talking to me, but it was only the branches rubbing against the glass."

On his thoughts

Now it's working...

"We will stand thread bare. And, I will see you in your place, as we can not

measure the inevitable see nor the space between us, I will wait!

We have borders to cross..."

And, I'll have my piece... Just right in time.