Choose Your Hard

#ChooseYourHard with a Mind of a Queen and Heart of a Warrior. Protect your relationship/marriage. Don’t let outsiders destroy what took years for you to build.

Telling someone with anxiety to just calm down is like telling someone with epilepsy to just stop having seizures. Don’t invalidate someone because you have no idea. We all have anxieties. Just different levels. Someone may seem and look fine or strong. But who knows what kind of monsters they keep battling in their heads all the time.

Respect! 😉

When choosing a woman who works, you have to accept that she can't handle the house.

If you have chosen a housewife who can take care of you and fully manage your household, you have to accept that she is not earning money.

If you choose an obedient woman, you must accept that she depends on you and you must ensure her life.

If you decide to be with a strong woman, you have to accept that she is tough and she has her own opinion.

If you choose a beautiful woman, then you will have to accept big expenses.

If you decide to be with a successful woman, you must understand that she has character and has her own goals and ambitions.

There are no such things as perfect. Everyone has their own riddle, which makes us unique.

Stop and think 😉... ctto

Reminder to all the Moms out there

A couple of weeks ago a child therapist that I know looked at my kids and said, 

"You're such a good mom" 

Feeling like a total fraud I blurted, "I don't feel like a good mom. The kids are driving me so crazy, I'm losing my temper and falling asleep at night wondering where I'm going to get the patience for another day" 

To which she responded with a statement that I haven't been able to forget,

"Babies cry, it's how they communicate. Toddlers scream, children whinge and teenagers complain. 

Then moms say the words 'for f#$& sake under their breath before ever responding. It's how we communicate. 

But guess what Con? It's better than silence. 

A house full of screaming kids and fighting teenagers and a parent who's being thrown every question and request is a healthy one to me. 

It's the silent children, the scared toddlers, the teenagers that don't come home and the parents who aren't in communication with their children that I worry about. 

And kids don't drive you crazy, you were crazy already. That's why you had them."

And just like that, I felt like a good parent again. 

Deep breaths, you're doing a good job. 

💗👑 Constance Hall

The Sunday Currently vol. 2

CURRENTLY 

Reading

March Schedule spreadsheet sent to me to review. 

Writing

This blog.

Listening

Somewhere. Off to next in my playlist. Fix You by Coldplay.

Thinking

about purchasing a bahay-kubo or just build a tree house for our backyard which we haven't been using eversince it was all cleaned up . With this pandemic, the kids are giving me tantrums why they can't go out to the mall, or they can't go to the amusement park and that we haven't been spending vacations out of town like what we used to. So yeah, I'm seriously considering a major overhaul in our backyard. I wanted a landscape initially for my plants.

Smelling

my kopiko blanca aroma. I'm just imagining this is brewed. 😂 

Wishing

this pandemic will be over so we all can back to our lives. 

Hoping

to get approval for my work proposals. It's been sitting there for weeks. 

Wearing

navy blue polka dot sundress or daster perhaps. 😂

Loving

the sight of my kiddos while I watch them sleeping. They really keep my sanity whenever I get anxiety attacks.

Wanting

to receive all my online purchases over the last few days. Yup! I hoarded some stuff again. Hey, grief and sadness have been killing me this month. I needed a distraction... I want a diversion. 

Needing

TIME to practice driving and do my insanity work out again. 

Feeling

clueless. Not sure what I feel at the moment. Yeah, I maybe complicated at times. 

Official Goodbye to 2020

I just recently decided to go back to writing. I haven’t been consistent for years, and there was really a long pause. This is a reminder to myself to keep on doing what I love - writing.

It is never too late to post my year ender. Just wanted to recap what happened last year so that when I look back, it will remind me the events. It would bring back the memories - be it happy or sad!

January

Started the year with personal issues. I attended high school reunion in Santa Rosa. Yup, I am that boring that I had to take my work with me.

February

I knew I was really sad. It happens all the time when February comes. But as always, I tried so hard to fight my inner battles. 

Bought our 2nd family car. Welcome to our family, Echo. We really hoped to build more memories just like what we had shared with Fortune. 

My birth month. February will always be memorable. Always.

March

Last time our family went out together for some grocery shopping. Classes are suspended due to new strain of virus - covid-19.

Nationwide lockdown started to take place after President Rodrigo’s announcement.

Good thing - I already anticipated it would happen. We were able to upgrade to automatic washing machine, plus nabudol-budol ako sa SM because I ended up buying an inverter fridge as well. I didn’t matter if I zeroed out our savings. I knew I had to...

I was able to provide PPE and n95 masks to my sister who is a nurse.

April

Paranoia strikes back. With Taal volcano eruption and covid pandemic, my mind is racing wars on its own. I was prepared for the pandemic - stocks and supplies-wise. That's how paranoid I am. But it helps you know.

Started planting. Yes, I became an official PlanTita. Though, I love to plant herbs and crops. It was so satisfying when I had my first harvest. Kilig ako sobra!

May

Addicted to online shopping. I never imagined ‘add to cart’ would give me different kind of ecstasy. 😅 I mean, seriously. It is sooooo satisfying.

Liquor ban lifted. Although some parts of the Philippines are still banned. I'm not an alcoholic. Well, not for so many years - but with the lockdown, and all, don't we need something to keep us sane?

And yes as expected, I hoarded. 😅 At first, members of this group I joined, bashed me when I was looking for a rider to deliver alcoholic beverages in our house. 

Maybe the old me would retaliate. The old me would always fight back. But hey, people change and so do I. So I had to post the same photo above on that group to politely give them an update that it's lifted based on city ordinance.

Truth and behold, months after - there was another liquor ban. Our alcohol supplies lasted for months. Infact, there's still Vodka left up to now. 😆

June

Multiple birthday celebrations in the family. I had to improvise my kiddos requests to have a Toy Story and Super Mario theme party. 

Uno cried before his birthday party as he was expecting some guests. But because of the lockdown, we're not able to invite anyone not even relatives. I had to explain again what's the situation in our world. Thanks to his classmates and teachers for the birthday greetings. 

July

Thank God for all the blessings. I'm just so grateful that we're not having difficulties during these trying times. Almost 6 months in quarantine - we still had food on our table. And we're all healthy - No sickness in the family. 

Got my pink gaming chair from the husband. 😍

Preparation for the kiddos online class. We were hesitant at first if the distant learning will be useful for our children. Bottomline, we enrolled them to online classes, same school. It's better that way rather than no school for a year. Who knows how long the pandemic would last?

August

My 3rd Young Living Premium Starter kit arrived. This time with desert mist diffuser. My first purchase was on July 2019, and it came with a dewdrop diffuser. My 2nd purchase was with feather owl diffuser for the kiddos.

So in love with frankincense. I don't know but it really does wonders for me. Well, actually for the entire family. I really thought about real hard before investing YL PSK. But it really works for me and my family. I will create another blog for my Oilbularyo journey.

September

Our house renovation is partially completed. At least for the garage and roof. I wish we have so much money to spend on renovation. But we're living within our means. It's not practical to loan. So, we save then we spend. 

Got a gift for myself. I upgraded to iPhone 11 from iPhone 7+. I haven't changed my phone for years. So yeah, I deserve to splurge for all my hard work. 😊

October

Our first copper mask. Lakas maka-artista feels. Wag na kumontra, nakikibasa ka lng! 😅 But seriously if you want to grab some, you can get it from my store. Here's the link: https://coppermask.ph/cpshop/PPS10940516 or you can also message me on facebook.

Mom-bie (Mom Zombie). Literally juggling work, biz and being a mom. This was the time I wanted a helper or a yaya. So I decided to set aside my online biz. 

November

Super typhoon came. Thank God we're prepared and safe. If I didn't push for our home renovation, we could've suffered big time. So, thank God for the wisdom and guidance whenever I make decisions based on my paranoia. Because, yeah it does help all the time. Good thing that the husband would always go with and respect my gut feel.

Did it ever happen to you that sometimes you'd ask yourself how come you have a comfortable life while others are suffering. Because I do. Don't get me wrong, I'm very grateful for what I have. And I know I really worked hard to help my husband to provide for our family. It's just that it makes me sad knowing that there are thousands or probably millions out there who don't have a roof or food on their table. 

I'm not a millionaire, yet. I just really feel sorry for all the people who were really impacted. So the only thing I can do at the moment is to give back to my community to the best that I can. 

December

Virtual Year End Party was a blast! 🤩 I'm so grateful for my virtual team. They're all amazing!

Had my first spread, and I kinda get addicted to it. I even bought a new cheeseboard to go with it for the holidays. 

Quarantine Christmas and New Year Celebration with the family.

Yes, I had too much rose wine that I was already sleeping before clock strikes 12:00 on Jan 1st. Grabe! Thunders na talaga! 😆

We haven’t been going out of town due to pandemic. I remember back in 2019, I was planning for our HK family trip. Oh well, I just hope that the world’s situation would at least improve in 2021.

So that's it for my 2020! All in all, it was a blessed and fruitful year. Of course, there were bumps that year that I didn't highlight or didn't go into details anymore. How was your 2020?

Okay Not To Be Okay

Tired of being okay with things I am not okay with. Did everything right but still feel sad. And it always hits the hardest from dusk to dawn.

Badly need my mental peace.