So Damn High

"I never stopped thinking of you.. your memories never failed to hunt me even in my dreams.. I tried to resist but there's a force wanting me to think of you more & more each day.. Though, I don't need "E" or cocaine, you're too good enough to drive me insane.. No matter how it gets me high, you're the only one who makes me fly..no way out, cant get through.. I'm so DAMN ADDICTED TO YOU..."

Why did you hurt me so bad? Why am I still thinking of you? I should be fine now... But I know, am still NOT, and Lord knows if I will ever be...

Bed ridden

I hate it when I'm sick.. Imagine my life's like a hell in bed since Saturday noon... I didn't eat anything for the past few days (just soup)... duh?! I really hate medicines! (but of course, I was left w/ no choice but to intake 'em or else.. might caught me sleeping forever..) 

I didn't crave for anything to eat until last night... trying to get my strength back... yes doc! I'll start to drink my vitamins! hmp! I'd even bring my umbrella so i've got protection when it rains.. but pls.. I can't stop smoking.. peace!

Torn

Again.. I'm shattered into pieces.. Once again life twirls down hill...

You know what I hate about? 

It's being confused not knowing what to do running around in circles until you get dizzy and fall... 

Might be caught up.. 

Might be down dead! 

Might stray me into infidelity.. 

Is that what the rock bottom of life is....?


It's killing me once again.. though, I would want to anguish it... I'm still wanting the pain.

The misery I felt years ago. 

Why I'm still feeling the pain? 

Why I'm still longing? 

I'm totally disturbed!!! 

I hope, in chaos.. I may find peace.. 

In the darkness, I may find the light.. 

Hatred? May this lead me back to love... 

Will this lead me back to you?

You were my life.. And, you took it away from me.