Confessions of a Social Introvert: Rants

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Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Wake up, Princess!

Love. Very strong word. Though not just a mere word, it's indeed an "action" word. You don't just say I LOVE YOU for some b*llsh*t reason, or say it because you're fond of saying it. Imagine yourself being introduced to someone, and the person says I Love You on your first date. What would you say? What would you feel? Would you believe it?

Damn! It will scare the hell out of me, seriously! Scary, isn't it?! There is no such thing as love as first sight. That's crap! Whoever invented that phrase overly sensationalized the "thought." It's just a pigment of one's imagination. There's always a period of getting-to-know-you stage before you can finally realize you're falling for someone. Yes, there maybe an attraction at the first glance. But, love?! Hell, no!!!

Ladies, be very careful! A guy may even promise to give you heaven and earth. Do yourself a favor! Do not fall for that trap! He only wants to get into your pants. Seek for a man who respects you, and will not promise anything and everything to please you. Men master the art of pretenses.

When I say men, it only pertain to chauvinistic, pimps, players, thugs, ballers and shot callers. An honorable man protects you and your feelings, but not play with it. An honorable man will never lie to you regardless if it's a white-lie. If he did it once, and you let it pass then don't expect he's going to change for you. Because he will never be.

Drop that idea that if you play a martyr (girlfriend or wife) would mean he'll realize that, and change for you. Change comes from within. As long as you're allowing him to treat you that way, you're permitting him to torture you emotionally. Certainly, you'll end up crying. DO NOT EVER COMPLAIN ON WHAT YOU PERMIT!

Choosing to be fooled by this type of a guy won't get you anywhere, just in bed or in despair.

Ladies tend to cling on to a relationship not because they've been fooled. I don't believe that!

We know exactly if someone's fooling us, or lying to us for that matter. Ladies have a strong gut-feel. It's innate! But, you want to know the truth?! We just make our self believe that he is faithful, and he loves you. Truth of the matter is, he's not! Alright, you caught him once cheating on you, and he denied. But, you know exactly he did. You'd rather believe he didn't cheat on you, than admit he did. One way or another, you're just creating a monster out of him.

Do not be a masochist!!! You're beautiful who deserves respect and right kind of love... Time to wake up from long sleep, Princess! Your real and true Prince Charming awaits you. Do not look for love, it will soon find you!

Love is not being insistent. Love is not an obligation. Love is not a responsibility. It is not selfish and possessive. Love shows respect and trust. Accept for who you are, and whom you are not. Love doesn't tolerate wrong-doings. It helps you to become a better person. It doesn't cheat, lie or humiliate you. But, that's selfishness and ego!

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

What are you? A f*ckin' bird!!!

Like an ostrich with its head in the sand. You who have been trying to remain blissfully ignorant of a situation. But hiding from it won't make it go away.

Just because you pretend you don't have a problem doesn't mean you don't have a problem. But the good news is that "the problem" you have isn't really a problem at all, but an opportunity. Once you start exploring your options for dealing with it, the situation will open a door to something wonderful and unanticipated.

Now, think!!!

Monday, April 30, 2012

My One Last Rhapsody

Recently, I've been surrounded with good and happy people which makes it a lot easier to uncarry the burdens. I TOOK THAT first step. And now, it's up to me to stick up with that...

At times, I really wanted to scream and shout to tell everyone that I do not deserve to be treated just like that. I have done nothing wrong. But yes, I preferred to be silent. I stayed calm. Chaos couldn't be taken out by calling out for a war. I somehow realized, there's no need to explain myself. I may please some, but most of them will just believe the unknown. It doesn't matter what has been said, who said it, and to whom it was said... Bottomline is, it hit me so hard! I'm just human! And yes, I really wanted to retaliate, and revenge for that matter. If I did, what does that make me?!

A friend of mine once told me: "We have to be logical at all times." She stressed out a very good point. In all situations, we have to think first before we take appropriate actions. It's being mature! One way or another, if we use our logic then we'll be able to set aside all our emotions and come up with a sound decision.

It took a lot of patience to stay calm. It's in my nature to have a high tolerance for rude people. One day, the truth will come out. For sure, "to you" who's been treating me badly. In time, your own accusations will definitely slap and hit through your own face. Well as for me, I've been awakened... And I have found out the truth that's why I took that first step. It wasn't an easy decision. It took a lot of courage and determination.

I DO NOT BELIEVE IN DESTINY. But, I believe in karmic reaction. If we do good deeds, we'll earn our reward. If we do bad, then we'll pay for it in due time. I have paid my debts, and I learned so much from it.

So now, I'm looking forward for serendipity - "happy accident" or "pleasant surprise"; specifically, the accident of finding something good or useful without looking for it. All of these burdens will be over soon... And when that time comes, it's gonna be worth all the pain.

Saturday, April 21, 2012

Tormenting Feeling

Do you feel guilty about something you did in the past? Do you often think you are a bad person? Do you think you do not deserve to have what you wish? Are you aware of how a feeling of guilt can hurt you and people around you? Do you wish to learn how to let go of this negative feeling that is probably giving you much suffering?

Feeling guilty can be a night mare for some people that have a problem with anxiety or with a similar disorder. It is no wonder that guilt is what keeps a person as a prisoner in anxious state.

You may wish to get rid of all these thoughts that give you a feeling of guilt but you just simply can't succeed in doing it. This feeling of guilt is coming back to you all the time. Don't try to simply forget about these thoughts that are making you feel guilty, because you will not succeed. You are supposed to accept all thoughts that are giving you pain, and live with them for some time. In time they will perish or won't present a problem for you when you remember about them.

While feeling guilty can be a cause for you anxiety, it is much more common for guilt to arise when anxiety has already developed. Don't be surprised if you didn't feel guilty till now. When in anxiety state, your feelings can play tricks on you very easily. Your emotions can very easily and quickly respond to every real or assumed guilt that you present in your consciousness, so there is a chance that your thoughts are wondering from one guilt to another, tormenting you and your psyche.

Thursday, April 5, 2012

Some sort of Manifestation

Receive "The Promise"

And here is "the verse of hope." After God spent a few verses setting up the background of what the Jews were to do now and how long they would have to do it, He tells them that He has great plans for them.

Simply receive this promise as your own. Yes it was to the Jews thousands of years ago, but these verses set up God's desire for all humanity if they will only do the next step.

I speak of hope... I speak in humility... No time for hatred. All of these burdens will be over soon.

Breathe.

Inhale.

Exhale.

Sunday, March 18, 2012

The Way of Love

1If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. 2And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3If I give away all I have, and if I deliver up my body to be burned,a but have not love, I gain nothing.

4Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant 5or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful;b 6it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. 7Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

8Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away. 9For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10but when the perfect comes, the partial will pass away. 11When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I gave up childish ways. 12For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known.

13So now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love.

Sunday, January 29, 2012

A bit of Conundrum

Take risks: if you win, you will be happy; if you lose, you will be wise.

What if we could turn back the dial. Maybe if not for ourselves, but maybe for someone else. Turn back the dial to a time when laughter was easy, and worries and cares were a million miles away. Turn the dial back to that moment right before the pain began. When innocence was lost. What if.

Sometimes i wonder what if this would have been different with us. What if we didn't live so far? What if we hadn't of lied? What if things have changed? But then I realize that I could be here for days going through all the what if's and just have to face reality.

What if it’s time. To break free. Free. Really free. What if. We could really grasp what that means. Then live it.

Monday, January 23, 2012

Just a cup of coffee

"I hate coffee.." Oh well, believe it or not, I never drink coffee before, not until I worked graveyard shift. What else should keep you up from evening til morning? It's not easy to work at night where everybody else is sleeping, and you're just about to start your day. Working at night, sleeping in the morning.. That's been my life for almost 10 years.

You know what's surprising? I stumbled upon this Greek study, and it turns out that sipping just one cup of coffee a day can actually help lower your blood pressure. Yeah, I was just as shocked as you are!

Now, let's talk about coffee. I mean, everybody seems to be head over heels for Starbucks, Seattle's Best, Coffee Bean, and all that jazz. Me? Well, I didn't really care about coffee until I had my first cup. But here's the kicker – I'm a tad paranoid. I won't touch coffee unless I'm the one who bought it from Starbucks or some legit coffee shop. Call me quirky or a total freak, but I've always had this weird idea that someone might sneak something into my cup – you know, like a potion or poison. If I accept coffee from someone else, it means I trust them, and trust isn't something I hand out like candy. It's just the way I roll!

But here's the real revelation. Coffee made me realize something profound. The cup you drink it from? Yeah, it's just an overpriced container that sometimes hides what's inside. What we're really after is the coffee itself, not the cup it comes in. So why do we all go gaga over fancy cups? We even check out each other's cups, for crying out loud!

Now, think about this. Life? That's your coffee. And those jobs, money, and social status? They're just the cups we use to hold our lives. The cup doesn't change the taste of the coffee, right? Similarly, your job or bank balance doesn't define the quality of your life.

Sometimes, we get so caught up admiring the cup that we forget to savor the coffee inside. So, let's focus on enjoying the coffee, not obsessing over the cups! The happiest people aren't necessarily the ones with the fanciest cups; they're the ones who know how to make the best of what they've got. Keep it simple, spread love generously, care deeply, and talk kindly.

Now, if you'll excuse me, I'm daydreaming about a mouthwatering coffee jelly... Mmm...

Thursday, January 19, 2012

The Dreamer, The Manipulator, and The Idealist

This is a story of The Manipulator, The Dreamer and The Idealist...

As life goes on, and as the situation warrants, the time The Dreamer and The Manipulator have to spend for each other seemed not enough anymore. She sleep and wake up each day with the longing to sleep and wake up each day with him. The feelings of longing and aloneness grew more each day until she became unhappy along the way. The saddest part of it, is when she have to steal her own little happiness where infact, she has The Idealist - nothing to ask and long for. It’s painful and depressing. It's guilt!

Whatever it is, may always be the right love at the wrong time, victim of circumstance or whatever theory maybe applicable, still it hurts. And she just wake up one day she have lost herself in the process. She became selfish, miserable, bitter and unkind to herself. She'd not regret the bliss it brought but surely she’d regret hurting the one person who truly believed in her and who really loves her. And she become bitter, why he allowed her to fall in love with The Manipulator when in truth and in fact their hearts are not free.

The Dreamer has finally awaken, and started walking the right path. And, she gave up on love. Roadblocks. Bumpy. But, she have tried to weather it all despite the numerous times of getting hurt, being wounded. But, she's decided though... Just when she thought, the coast is clear - whirlwind approaches. Turmoil. Disaster. There it was, love gave up on her...

Life is full of reasons and seasons. It started with bliss and ended in misery. The scars would forever linger, haunting her. But the Dremer believed that life tends to balance itself out, moving forward despite the pain. Maybe, after the darkness, the sun would shine again, and she would once more bask in its warmth.

This is a story about the complexities of love, longing, and self-discovery. It follows the journey of "The Dreamer," who found herself entangled with "The Manipulator" while having "The Idealist" by her side. As time passed, The Dreamer's longing for The Manipulator grew, leading to unhappiness and guilt. She realized the pain she caused to The Idealist, the one who truly cared for her.

The story reflects on the idea that love can sometimes come at the wrong time, causing hurt and self-discovery. The Dreamer eventually decides to give up on love and go on a journey of self-improvement and healing. While there are roadblocks and turmoil, the story tells us that life goes on, and there is hope for brighter days ahead.

Ultimately, it conveys the message that sometimes, to find the right path, we must make difficult decisions, even if it means enduring pain and embracing the reality of life's ups and downs.

We don’t have to wait and lose ourself in the process and regret it for the rest of your life. Sometimes, we have to make the most important decision in our lives: that is to stand for what is right even if means embracing all the pain of reality. Life is metamorphosis. Sometimes, we have to die inside to live again. And sometimes, all we have to do is breathe even it hurts even just to breathe...

Friday, January 13, 2012

Freaky Friday the 13th?

Yes, today is Friday the 13th. Sounds funny as I just got off the phone with someone, and we were talking about how freaky, sneaky and how it creates bad luck. Doubtful, I am. Honestly, I have never encountered anything unusual whenever it's Friday the 13th (or maybe not that I'm aware of).

Friday the 13th occurs when the thirteenth day of a month falls on a Friday, which superstition holds to be a day of bad luck. In the Gregorian calendar, this day occurs at least once, but at most three times a year. Any month's thirteenth day will fall on a Friday if the month starts on a Sunday.

I must say I'm super paranoid. But, never did it occur to me that something bad will happen to me today. People usually say to be extra careful when this day comes as you can't resist bad luck. Some would say accidents happen. Oh well, my thought on that is we should always be careful regardless if it's Friday the 13th or not. We should be responsible of our own actions. If you drink and drive, then most likely you'll end up either in jail, hospital or worse - in coffin.

C'mon! It's still Friday! Let's cheers to that!

Friday, December 23, 2011

The Dream and The Dreamer

Dreams are the silent storytellers of the night, weaving sequences of images, ideas, emotions, and sensations within the confines of our slumber. They unfold like forgotten chapters of a mysterious book, illuminating the landscapes of our innermost thoughts. In the realm of dreams, the boundaries of reality blur, allowing the mind to wander freely.

The Keeper of Dreams walks a path strewn with rocks, accompanied by laughter and the occasional bump.

The Point Guard navigates a road adorned with countless signs, yet marred by cruelty and violence.

The Idealist strolls down a smoothly paved path, lined with trees and flowers, surrounded by common friends.

Picture this: your mind is this playground, and dreams are like the slides, swings, and merry-go-rounds. They can take you to places you've never been or bring up feelings you forgot about. It's like a secret movie theater in your head that plays whatever it wants.

So, while you're off in Dreamland, your brain is the director, and you're the audience. And when you wake up, you might remember bits and pieces of this surreal show, or it might vanish like smoke in the wind. Yep, dreams are a bit like that – a nighttime adventure for your mind.

Friday, July 29, 2011

Letter of moving on

"Judge not that ye be judged. For with what judgment ye judge, ye shall be judged, what measure you mete it shall be measured to you again." Matthew 7:1-7.

I know my choices have been made on the basis of prayer and compassion for others. I have asked to see things from others' point of view. Then I do as I am lead to do in life.

PapaGod says if you turn your back on those in need, He will turn His back on you in your time of need.

Now I ask PapaGod to eliminate the deep bitterness and anger that I have allowed into my heart because of your actions. I ask that PapaGod bless you in your life.

I ask that PapaGod will help me to rise above this to a higher level. I ask that He will not allow me to dwell in a life of bitterness and anger. I ask to dwell in a life of abundance and love.

I'm letting go of all the hatred I have in my heart. As this is the last piece of emotion I will ever feel. For tomorrow awaits a new day for me...

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Dear PapaGod

Dear PapaGod,

Please free the 'knots' entangled in my mind, my heart, and my life.

Banish the have-nots, the can-nots, and the do-nots residing in my mind.

Wipe away the will-nots, may-nots, and might-nots that try to nest in my heart. Liberate me from the could-nots, would-nots, and should-nots that obstruct my life.

And above all, dearest PapaGod, I implore you to eliminate from my mind, my heart, and my life all the am-nots that have hindered me, especially the belief that I am not good enough.

Forever Your Child,