Unexplicated

I should be out by 3pm but i'm still here in the office. I've heaps of things to do yet i couldn't think anymore. I'm f*ckin trying hard to be with people so i wouldn't feel the emptiness. I wouldn't feel alone. So i would not miss him, i wouldn't think of him... It's all gone...

I still have this little hope inside of me that we could work things out. Looking back how we started, it was almost perfect! I could not ask for more during those days. It was really magic! Yet things aren't really permanent. As days went by, we discovered our imperfections, our flaws... We tried to hold on... Yet, we've been struggling for the past 2 years. I heard all the unpleasant things I could ever hear in my entire life... It's a fact that I'm really hurting right now. I don't want to feel the same old shit. I hate the feeling of being alone... I hate it. I thought i'm strong... The more i think is the more i'm getting hurt yet I'm insisting myself to cry but tears aren't falling down. Am i numb? Actually, it's harder to feel this way. I wouldn't want to breakdown anytime soon...

Glimpse of past

I have never felt relieved until now. It’s been almost 10 years of denial. The truth already set me fee… Where should I start? 

Recently, a very good friend of mine sent me a heart whelming letter. It was a total shock because of his revelation! ”I'm not here to reminisce about the past and waste your time, cause as a fact we are all busy living our lives and working for a living.” While I was reading his long letter, it brought me back in time. 

It was 11 years ago… I met him in La Salle through a friend (the first girl friend I had there which sooner on became my best friend.) He was a very good friend of mine, infact I considered him as my bestfriend way back then considering that she is also his bestfriend. We’re both in the same class taking up the same major. He’s sweet, smart and good-looking. Girls were really going on his way because he’s kinda “hunk”. Should I consider myself lucky because out of many, he chose me? Yup, he courted me for so long… It was December of 1999 when he went to my place, he was drunk and totally out of control. He was telling me how much he loves me and all that! But, to cut it short, I dumped him. We never talked since then… 

Until he had a girlfriend which happened to be our classmate too and my room mate. I could still remember every time he’s seeing me in our dormitory; she would say “How I wish I’m his girl!” Yeah! Twist of fate, huh?!! I have nothing against this girl because she’s also a good friend of mine. What’s the point of getting mad? I dumped him so he had all the rights in the world to be happy with someone else. What pissed me off was the fact we were friends yet I was the last person to know that she had a new girl. I couldn’t blame him because we really kept our distance apart even after college. Then I heard from my girlfriend, he broke up with the girl. Although, we didn’t have any communication even before he left for New Jersey… 

I learned to forget and set aside my confusions and reservations. Our friendship matters to me the most. Those lines really melted my heart.

After reading his letter, I found myself tapping the keyboard, sharing my thoughts in writing… Finally, I can take off the burden I’ve kept for so many years… He has to know and he has the right to know...

P990i

Category:	Computers & Electronics
Product Type:	Cell-phones
Manufacturer:	Sony Ericsson

I maybe bias because i have this phone. However, it's really amazing to have a 3G smartphone, PDA and a stylus type of phone. It's jam packed! I can read ebooks, surf the net through Wi-fi, etc. check this out.

The Da Vinci Code

Category:	Books
Genre:	Mystery & Thrillers
Author:	Dan Brown

THE DA VINCI CODE heralds the arrival of a new breed of lightening-paced, intelligent thriller…surprising at every twist, absorbing at every turn, and in the end, utterly unpredictable…right up to its astonishing conclusion.

Beauty's Release: The Conclusion of the Classic Erotic Trilogy of Sleeping Beauty

Category:	Books
Genre:	Literature & Fiction
Author:	Anne Rice

In the final volume of Anne Rice's deliciously tantalizing erotic trilogy, Beauty's adventures on the dark side of sexuality make her the bound captive of an Eastern Sultan and a prisoner in the exotic confines of his harem. As this voluptuous adult fairy tale moves toward conclusion, all of Beauty's encounters with the myriad variations of sexual fantasy are presented in a sensuous, rich prose that intensifies this exquisite rendition of Love's secret world and makes the Beauty series an incomparable study of erotica. In it, Anne Rice makes the forbidden side of passion a doorway into the hidden regions of the psyche and the heart.

I really found this intriguing... At last, she finally found her Prince which was there all along. I really loved it!

Beauty's Punishment: The Second of the Classic Erotic Trilogy of Sleeping Beauty

Category:	Books
Genre:	Other
Author:	Anne Rice

This book discussed how Beauty endured when she was sent to the village, her varied experiences take on more and more dimension. It was such mind candy to read! More spanking! More sexual captives! Still appealing! Though, i was more impressed with the first sequel "The Claiming of Sleeping Beauty!"

The Claiming of Sleeping Beauty (Erotic Adventures of Sleeping Beauty)

Category:	Books
Genre:	Other
Author:	A. N. Roquelaure

The story was patterned to the fairy tale/legend of Sleeping Beauty. Anne Rice gave justice to the novel contained both maledom and femdom scenarios, as well as vivid imageries of bisexuality and ephebophilia. It explores sexuality in an explicit, and for many, unfamiliar manner. Beauty asleep for 100 years, is awoken not by the light kiss of his but by the act of first sexual initiation. How Anne Rice's retelling of the Beauty story probes the unspoken implications of this lush, suggestive tale by exploring its undeniable connection to sexual desire. His reward for ending the hundred years of enchantment is Beauty's complete and total enslavement to him…as Anne Rice explores the world of erotic yearning and fantasy in a classic that becomes, with her skillful pen, a compelling experience on the twists. Very erotic and amatory! Must read for adults!

Sweet Waters

Picture was taken on our way to Subic when we had a stop over somewhere I don't know. So here are my friends-at-work (from left to right: Anj, me, Rey and JP) who posed for the cam. Look at JP! He's damn excited wearing his malong. Just kidding, I think he just intended to wore it for the shot. We hangout there for awhile then the trip to Subic was never ending...

It's nice having this kind of trip where you get to relax (not to mention, it's all expense paid). It's 2 days of non-work, no-stress leisure. It took us almost 6 hours to get to the place. We anticipated the traffic jam, but hey! This one's really a looongg drive...


This is it! A place they called Sweet Waters... I wonder why they call this place sweet waters. It's stupidity if I tasted the water, don't you think?! (hehehe...)

We actually arrived in the evening. This shot was taken the day after. Just need to post it to show the view. They said there's a cage out there behind the trees but I didn't dare to check it out. Was to busy to prepare for the activities.

Management team kept on insisting I was drunk that night. Again I'll attest to that... I WAS NOT! I was just tipsy... I had 4 bottles of San Mig Light, 7 cups of mindoro sling and 4 cups of Baileys. So will they still insist I was drunk.

Blame it on Anj. She's really a drunken master. She's one hella chic who wouldn't pass out during your drinking sessions. Imagine, she even doubled my shots yet she was still standing. No joke! Yeah, maybe I was drunk. It was really part of it! The team building was really fun!