Today... I was born

My Facebook timeline/messenger, LinkedIn messages and emails are flooded with greetings from friends old and new, highschool & college classmates, family & relatives, clients, business ventures and previous colleagues. I’m so overwhelmed with the messages that are coming in up until now. Maybe it’s the PMS that I’m getting so emotional...

Lately, I have been feeling lonely for some reasons. I always have this kind of feeling every February of the year. It’s been consistent for years. Don’t get me wrong I’m happy with my life but I felt something is lacking - so I resulted to collecting hobbies. From adult coloring book, health & fitness, gaming,  arts & crafts to gardening, I have indulged myself into it thinking it will fill in. But I was wrong as what I discovered is that I have been missing the OLD me - who completely loves challenges at work. I maybe ranting all the time back then while I was in the process of moving up. And I’d like to believe it was part of the process I had to go thru to be the better version of ME. Lucky enough for those who have always been focused on what they wanted. But as for me, TIME and LIFE lessons have brought me to that realization that made me look at things maturely and positively later on. I really had to go through all that cycle over and over to make me who I am right now.

So TODAY, my birthday! I have received some really GREAT news, one of which is job offer related. And I felt complete satisfaction. Prior to that, I received several offers to work in an office, back to corporate world. But my husband and I were really not liking that idea. At first, I wasn’t really serious about getting a home-based job again. I’ve not been working for almost 2 years. Well, I became busy with other online money making projects. The MomPreneur in me has risen. Yet like what I was saying - there’s something missing in my being. That’s when I found out it’s time for me roll with the punches and experience the hustle at work. Well, I have been working from home since 2009. And I have managed several teams remotely since then. Fast forward - I got this irresistible offer that when I was asked when will I start - I immediately said tomorrow, which means it’s happening in about 12 hrs from now.

I learned to never burn bridges with your previous coworkers especially boss(es). I’m really delighted  that my previous boss have given positive recommendations about me so I got the job offer! I’m always grateful for all the favors, be it small or big!

Okay, this is a long-boring post but heck - I’m really happy and complete. I may not have a perfect life right now with all the bumps and the blows here and there. But, I always bring back myself to my what makes me tick - my family! So, here... sharing with you the cake I got from my husband. My birthday celebration is really intimate with family - and that’s all I need.

When I died...

Have you ever experienced a time when you don't know tears are already flowing down your cheeks, and suddenly you feel a shortage of breath? You sob. And that’s the only time it hit you. You're crying! You know exactly why, and you just can't stop!

FEBRUARY. My emotions are really erratic same month of every year since 2002. Though I know deep down in my heart - I have already moved on, but I still have what-ifs and hopes, that if I can ever travel back in time... I'd choose February 19, 2002 over and over again.  Then skip - fast forward today. Who cares about messing up the timeline? Sounds selfish! I just wish... I could only wish... 'Cause I know... TIME doesn't work that way. And I realized that... I tried for so many years to accept that!

I just have to deal with this feeling until February ends...

Midnight Life Lesson Thoughts

I've been kicked in the teeth by life and business for the last few years and felt like giving up a million times. Infact, at one point, I was so broke that I didn't know how I was going to get-through the following week.

It can be easy in life to find yourself going in the wrong direction and wondering how you got there... There's nothing fun about finding yourself stuck in a rut!

When you don't know where you're going in life, it really is daunting. I have been there... But there was always something inside of me though that knew, if I just got the right combination and put in the right action, success would be ahead.

Imagine living in this desert. No source of water, no people, no civilization at all for miles around. It would suck right? This is true scarcity. Many people alive today think in scarcity when it comes to achieving their goals. 

Take me for instance... I used to think that only these gurus were able to make any serious bucks online and that it was not possible for the average Joe. 

Not true. I soon realized that once I changed my mindset everything began to change for me. 80% mindset, 20% strategy = Success.

Life is much, much different now. As in everything... Few pit stops along the way, but with the right mindset and attitude - I believe, I got better how I perceive life really.

Hell yeah, I'm back!

So yeah... I'm back! After hiatus for years... There's a lot of things that have happened in the last what... 5 or 6 years.  But I'm ready to write again! I just enabled my blog to be visible in public again. This means I'm ready to defeat all the demons of my past, conquer my present fears and... face the unknown of the future...