The Sunday Currently vol. 1

Well this is not a secret that I am a fan of Maine. Yeah, I'm inspired by her Sunday Currently.  She adapted it from The Sunday Currently by siddathornton so I thought of why not do it as well since I'm back to blogging (not vlogging). 

It's been quite some time since I ever posted a new blog post. There's nothing much interesting about me to watch out for. I just want to do this for ME. This used to be my therapy. If you happen to be interested of who am I, what am I thinking or feeling --- then, feel free to read. 😀 No judgement! ✌

CURRENTLY 

Reading

my blogs.  Yes blogs. I had a looooot... Some are in drafts, some are published. 😅 I realized what kind of a person am I years ago - my teenage life to adulthood. I'm able to understand what emotions I had back then that transpired me to write emo blogs. 😂

Writing

I said this many times, but yeah... Back to writing. I already installed blogspot in my iPhone, so just like the old days I'm going to throw away my emotions in writing.

Listening

I Wanted You by Ina on Apple Music. I used to cry whenever I heard this song before. I'm literally laughing right now. OMG! Super pathetic! 😂😂😂 

Thinking

about Vacation. Vacation. Vacation. It's been more than a year that I haven't really had a well spent vacation. We used to go out of town. But ever since pandemic came, all plans were cancelled. 

Smelling

scent of Perry Ellis Original I sprayed all over me after taking a shower. I know, I know I'm just home. But hey, we all have the urge of feeling and 'smelling' good even we're at home. You see, I don't really go out for months. So what am I gonna do to all my perfumes?! Might as well use it, right? It makes me happy and calm.

Wishing

to finish all my work plans for the upcoming week. I've been really working on it for quite sometime. It would be really nice to see its fruition.

Hoping

to take away all the sadness in me. It's always this month of the year. Always. 😕

Wearing

blue Family shirt with 'Nanay' print and shorts. I wore this during my kids' Family day at school 2 years ago. Well at least, it still fits. I'd like to think I lost weight. But it's just my definition on the basis that I can still wear it. hahahaha

Loving

that I find solace writing again. I have a few blog entries to publish this week. Uhm, maybe after I decide if I should publish. It might just stay in drafts. But we'll see...

Wanting

to have 8 hour sleep. San ba nabibili yun? 😅 Honestly, with my schedule at work, managing my online/offline biz and being a mom - I feel that sleeping 8 hrs is already a luxury. But I'd really love to experience it again. 

Needing

sleep. I can't stress this enough. Just a straight 8 hour sleep please - without any interruptions from the kiddos. Not that I'm complaining though. I love my kids so much. I just need to hibernate, you know.

Feeling

relieved, for now. That's the satisfaction I get whenever I write. So yeah, I will do this until I feel better inside. 

Blessed Sunday to All! 

Across the Borders

Last Sunday, our City Mayor announced total lockdown closing all borders in our nearby cities. Though my husband and I knew there’s a slim chance we’d be able to cross. We still took our chances to go thru the border. It’s unusual not seeing people on the streets. Guards (with their masks on) stationed on the first checkpoint waived at us, instructed my husband to pull down the car window. We told the guards the reason why we have to cross. He let us enter but told us we won’t be able to pass thru to another checkpoint. But still we took our chances.. I saw my brother’s car maybe 3-5 meters away from the gate, and wasn’t allowed to come in. We had to ask the other guards to give us a few minutes to let us pass thru and take a u-turn just to hand over something to my brother (at that time already stepped out of his car.) The guards opened the gate for us but immediately followed, and told us to quickly come back to the gate. It was quick - my husband just handed over the ecobag with PPE. It felt like we were on a movie... The difference is that, there was no musical scoring, no dramatic dialogues, and IT IS ALL REAL.

You see, my sister is a nurse. And while we’re all advised to simply stay at home - they’re risking their life to stay in medical facility to save lives. Countless times we had to ask her to just stay home. She doesn’t need to go to work anymore considering what’s happening right now - but she always come back and say “she took an oath.” I may seem to be selfish asking her to stop, but hey she’s my sister and I don’t want to risk her life. Our  family respected her choice, we support her selfless decision. But the major problem is they’re running out of PPE. So yeah, I hope you see the picture why we had to endure and took chances passing thru the borders. Quick meetup as it is - but those PPE would help my sister to fight and survive as she help save lives.

If you ask me how in the hell I was able to secure N95 and safety goggles - the answer is simple, my paranoia helped. Period. Thank you also to those who gave her protective suit. That means a lot to us knowing she’ll be protected.

While we’re told to just simply stay at home. Health professionals and other front liners are risking their life to serve and fulfill their oath to save lives. So yes, it is a big deal for me! I have a sister risking her life out there to save yours and many others. LISTEN! STAY HOME! That’s all what we can do as we face this global health emergency. Let’s protect ourselves, protect our loved ones and our community. And we can protect the front-liners by staying home. Let’s flatten the curve. Stop spreading virus!!! 

Just a favor please, let’s include my sister, these selfless warriors and modern heroes in our prayers as they go thru this battle everyday. Thank you! 🙏

Today... I was born

My Facebook timeline/messenger, LinkedIn messages and emails are flooded with greetings from friends old and new, highschool & college classmates, family & relatives, clients, business ventures and previous colleagues. I’m so overwhelmed with the messages that are coming in up until now. Maybe it’s the PMS that I’m getting so emotional...

Lately, I have been feeling lonely for some reasons. I always have this kind of feeling every February of the year. It’s been consistent for years. Don’t get me wrong I’m happy with my life but I felt something is lacking - so I resulted to collecting hobbies. From adult coloring book, health & fitness, gaming,  arts & crafts to gardening, I have indulged myself into it thinking it will fill in. But I was wrong as what I discovered is that I have been missing the OLD me - who completely loves challenges at work. I maybe ranting all the time back then while I was in the process of moving up. And I’d like to believe it was part of the process I had to go thru to be the better version of ME. Lucky enough for those who have always been focused on what they wanted. But as for me, TIME and LIFE lessons have brought me to that realization that made me look at things maturely and positively later on. I really had to go through all that cycle over and over to make me who I am right now.

So TODAY, my birthday! I have received some really GREAT news, one of which is job offer related. And I felt complete satisfaction. Prior to that, I received several offers to work in an office, back to corporate world. But my husband and I were really not liking that idea. At first, I wasn’t really serious about getting a home-based job again. I’ve not been working for almost 2 years. Well, I became busy with other online money making projects. The MomPreneur in me has risen. Yet like what I was saying - there’s something missing in my being. That’s when I found out it’s time for me roll with the punches and experience the hustle at work. Well, I have been working from home since 2009. And I have managed several teams remotely since then. Fast forward - I got this irresistible offer that when I was asked when will I start - I immediately said tomorrow, which means it’s happening in about 12 hrs from now.

I learned to never burn bridges with your previous coworkers especially boss(es). I’m really delighted  that my previous boss have given positive recommendations about me so I got the job offer! I’m always grateful for all the favors, be it small or big!

Okay, this is a long-boring post but heck - I’m really happy and complete. I may not have a perfect life right now with all the bumps and the blows here and there. But, I always bring back myself to my what makes me tick - my family! So, here... sharing with you the cake I got from my husband. My birthday celebration is really intimate with family - and that’s all I need.

When I died...

Have you ever experienced a time when you don't know tears are already flowing down your cheeks, and suddenly you feel a shortage of breath? You sob. And that’s the only time it hit you. You're crying! You know exactly why, and you just can't stop!

FEBRUARY. My emotions are really erratic same month of every year since 2002. Though I know deep down in my heart - I have already moved on, but I still have what-ifs and hopes, that if I can ever travel back in time... I'd choose February 19, 2002 over and over again.  Then skip - fast forward today. Who cares about messing up the timeline? Sounds selfish! I just wish... I could only wish... 'Cause I know... TIME doesn't work that way. And I realized that... I tried for so many years to accept that!

I just have to deal with this feeling until February ends...

Midnight Life Lesson Thoughts

I've been kicked in the teeth by life and business for the last few years and felt like giving up a million times. Infact, at one point, I was so broke that I didn't know how I was going to get-through the following week.

It can be easy in life to find yourself going in the wrong direction and wondering how you got there... There's nothing fun about finding yourself stuck in a rut!

When you don't know where you're going in life, it really is daunting. I have been there... But there was always something inside of me though that knew, if I just got the right combination and put in the right action, success would be ahead.

Imagine living in this desert. No source of water, no people, no civilization at all for miles around. It would suck right? This is true scarcity. Many people alive today think in scarcity when it comes to achieving their goals. 

Take me for instance... I used to think that only these gurus were able to make any serious bucks online and that it was not possible for the average Joe. 

Not true. I soon realized that once I changed my mindset everything began to change for me. 80% mindset, 20% strategy = Success.

Life is much, much different now. As in everything... Few pit stops along the way, but with the right mindset and attitude - I believe, I got better how I perceive life really.

Hell yeah, I'm back!

So yeah... I'm back! After hiatus for years... There's a lot of things that have happened in the last what... 5 or 6 years.  But I'm ready to write again! I just enabled my blog to be visible in public again. This means I'm ready to defeat all the demons of my past, conquer my present fears and... face the unknown of the future... 

Why Facebook is a Facade?!

What we see everyday on people’s Facebook is a highlight. A highlight of someone’s life. The GOOD picture ONLY.

What others don’t see is who we really are outside of our ‘social media’ world. Our challenges. Our angsts. Our chaotic dramas. Behind those posts is the true persona. I’m not saying this goes for everyone. But if you are affected, then guess what? Truth hurts.

I’d still go for ACTIONS, not what I see on facebook. Anyone can post thousands of lies on social media. But what matters is who we really are outside this virtual world. So next time you want to tell your loved ones that you miss or love them - Make sure you spend time with them. Build memories NOT likes.

Bow!