An Ode to Myself

The philosophy and vision of The Secret is to bring joy to billions. To bring joy to the world, The Secret only creates life-transforming tools that are accessible to all people, and so therefore all creations are either low cost or free.

So here's my ode to live by...

I'm happy and grateful for the things that I have. I have a job!

I love the "people" in mylife... I 'm thankful for the second chance and I'm gonna make it right. Who says this will be easy? But I'll make it through... I'm thankful for all the blessings... the life that have right now!

Positive thoughts... Positive results!

Unexplicated

I should be out by 3pm but i'm still here in the office. I've heaps of things to do yet i couldn't think anymore. I'm f*ckin trying hard to be with people so i wouldn't feel the emptiness. I wouldn't feel alone. So i would not miss him, i wouldn't think of him... It's all gone...

I still have this little hope inside of me that we could work things out. Looking back how we started, it was almost perfect! I could not ask for more during those days. It was really magic! Yet things aren't really permanent. As days went by, we discovered our imperfections, our flaws... We tried to hold on... Yet, we've been struggling for the past 2 years. I heard all the unpleasant things I could ever hear in my entire life... It's a fact that I'm really hurting right now. I don't want to feel the same old shit. I hate the feeling of being alone... I hate it. I thought i'm strong... The more i think is the more i'm getting hurt yet I'm insisting myself to cry but tears aren't falling down. Am i numb? Actually, it's harder to feel this way. I wouldn't want to breakdown anytime soon...

Glimpse of past

I have never felt relieved until now. It’s been almost 10 years of denial. The truth already set me fee… Where should I start? 

Recently, a very good friend of mine sent me a heart whelming letter. It was a total shock because of his revelation! ”I'm not here to reminisce about the past and waste your time, cause as a fact we are all busy living our lives and working for a living.” While I was reading his long letter, it brought me back in time. 

It was 11 years ago… I met him in La Salle through a friend (the first girl friend I had there which sooner on became my best friend.) He was a very good friend of mine, infact I considered him as my bestfriend way back then considering that she is also his bestfriend. We’re both in the same class taking up the same major. He’s sweet, smart and good-looking. Girls were really going on his way because he’s kinda “hunk”. Should I consider myself lucky because out of many, he chose me? Yup, he courted me for so long… It was December of 1999 when he went to my place, he was drunk and totally out of control. He was telling me how much he loves me and all that! But, to cut it short, I dumped him. We never talked since then… 

Until he had a girlfriend which happened to be our classmate too and my room mate. I could still remember every time he’s seeing me in our dormitory; she would say “How I wish I’m his girl!” Yeah! Twist of fate, huh?!! I have nothing against this girl because she’s also a good friend of mine. What’s the point of getting mad? I dumped him so he had all the rights in the world to be happy with someone else. What pissed me off was the fact we were friends yet I was the last person to know that she had a new girl. I couldn’t blame him because we really kept our distance apart even after college. Then I heard from my girlfriend, he broke up with the girl. Although, we didn’t have any communication even before he left for New Jersey… 

I learned to forget and set aside my confusions and reservations. Our friendship matters to me the most. Those lines really melted my heart.

After reading his letter, I found myself tapping the keyboard, sharing my thoughts in writing… Finally, I can take off the burden I’ve kept for so many years… He has to know and he has the right to know...

P990i

Category:	Computers & Electronics
Product Type:	Cell-phones
Manufacturer:	Sony Ericsson

I maybe bias because i have this phone. However, it's really amazing to have a 3G smartphone, PDA and a stylus type of phone. It's jam packed! I can read ebooks, surf the net through Wi-fi, etc. check this out.

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Genre:	Mystery & Thrillers
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Category:	Books
Genre:	Literature & Fiction
Author:	Anne Rice

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Category:	Books
Genre:	Other
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