It's so good to be back!

Okay, so I'm back! 

I just realized that there's no need for me to be quiet despite all malicious accusations. I can't just sit here, and do nothing while you ruin my reputation. I tried to be silent because I'm not used to public squabble. I was raised well, and I wouldn't want to retaliate. Why? Because I'm far better than that... If I did, it's stooping down to your pathetic level.  It's just now that it hit me, jealousy leads to insecurity. I have nothing to do with you, hater! You do not matter to me at all!

So continue hating me! I do not care if you don't like me. The feeling is mutual, I do not care about you at all. Keep sending me rude comments until you get tired of your pathetic acts! 

Enjoy reading!

Waking up from a Nightmare

Have you ever been in a lucid dream, which quickly transforms into a nightmare? Even when you are aware that you are dreaming, sometimes it is at such a low level that you can't manipulate what is happening. Most people have had dreams like this, but if they happen too often, here's how to wake up. 

(Source: Wiki)

Try to realize that you are in fact dreaming. It is much harder to wake up if you think this is all really happening to you. Try to point out things that are happening that cannot possibly happen in real life, or things that just don't feel right. In fact, you can have a lucid dream if this happens, you could even change a nightmare to a good dream this way, try doing things you have always wanted to do, there will be no consequence in your dream. Sometimes even if you realize that you are dreaming it will be hard to wake up, and I do not recommend flapping your arms around to do so, as you'll likely end up in a strange, half-dream state flapping around in bed scaring people.

Attempt to manipulate your nightmare away. Some people are better at this than others, and it's okay if you find it hard. It takes a lot of practice to fully master this skill. Once you have realized you are in a dream, you can change things that are happening, and make the scary events leave the nightmare. This is better than fully waking yourself up if you still want to continue sleeping, or if you liked the dream you were having. Keep thinking of what you want to happen. If you were having a nightmare where you were watching your puppy be killed, keep saying to yourself, "My dog will beat up the killer, and run into my arms". This should happen immediately without repetition if you think it hard enough.

Wake up if you cannot change the dream. If you are having a nightmare where you are in a house that's on fire, and you can't put the fire out, it's time to leave. You should notice that when you yell for help in your dream, it's more of a faint whisper that does not make a sound. This is because your mouth isn't open in real life. You aren't actually activating your vocal chords or using air, so no sound is actually coming out. Think to yourself, 'I'm going to actually call for help'. Some people get the sensation of their brain responding with a no. Continue telling your brain that you will in fact call out for help until the sensation goes away. This is usually the second or third time. Then, say something. You will notice that it seems harder than usual, and that's because you are actually using your vocal chords. This time, a noise should come out, and you should wake up, realizing that it was all a dream.

Try to wake up again. If you still can't wake up, and that fire is coming closer and closer, it's time for Plan B. Have you ever noticed that you don't blink in your dreams? It's simple: try to blink. This is pretty easy, and comes in handy if you are having a really scary nightmare. In the dream, your eyes should close, then when you open them, they will be open in real life. You will probably be awake by then. If it doesn't work the first time, shut your eyes closed, hold them there for a few seconds, then slowly open them.

Try jolting yourself. in your dream, shake yourself so much that it has an effect on you in real life. When you are going to sleep and you have nightmares often, sleep in a position that's easy to 'kick' your legs, in the dream, really kick your legs in the dream which would hopefully wake you up.

The Way of Love

1If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. 2And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3If I give away all I have, and if I deliver up my body to be burned,a but have not love, I gain nothing.

4Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant 5or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful;b 6it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. 7Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

8Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away. 9For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10but when the perfect comes, the partial will pass away. 11When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I gave up childish ways. 12For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known.

13So now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love.

The Time Traveler

When HEROES started to air on tv, I've always been fascinated and amazed with Hero Nakamura's superpower. Out of all the great powers you can get, his is what I admired most. Why? Well, we all wish at one point to travel back in time for whatever reasons we may have... Could it be to correct that one mistake we have done in the past; To reunite with our lost loved ones; To just have one more chance to experience the same adrenalin rush: To anticipate what's going to happen in the future; To alter that one incident in our life that could entirely change our present. There are so many reasons, I bet. I'd like to  believe at one point, we all have dreamed of this.

I for myself have always been dreaming this could be real. Though in reality this concept doesn't exist. But hey, we're all dreamers believe me! How cool is that to rewind a certain scenario of your life, or even fast forward to see what happens next or to even pause and play it back after?

If only I could turn back time. Just for one more chance to cradle you in my arms again. I'd trade for anything and everything just to feel your tiny hands again. It's been 10 years now, my sweet lil angel... But still I miss you! Whatever future holds, you'll always be loved and remembered.

Knock! Knock Anonymous!

Okay, so there's another comment waiting to be published. Infact, I've got 4 pending now awaiting for moderation. Tsk! Tsk! Sweetie, I really don't want to be rude so please don't push me.. 

Walang taong perpekto! Hindi ko maintindihan ano ba gusto mo palabasin sa lahat ng mga comments mo. Pulos salita ka! Ayaw mo naman magpakilala. May nagawa ba kong masama sayo? Kung mayroon man, humihingi ako ng pasensya. Tama ka! 2012 na di ba, so let's move on na! Kung ayaw mo pa rin tumigil wala na ko magagawa sayo!

A fight against depression

Here we go again... Time of the year when I usually get depressed. Month of Hearts! Yes, February means so much to me, not because of Valentine's day really but there's more to that. For the past few years, well, almost 10 years now chronic depression hits me during the last few days of January until the end of Feb. There's certain sadness I feel even if I tried to resist. This has to stop... It's just mind over matter!

So, What Exactly is Chronic Depression?

Depression is a mental state characterized by overwhelming feelings of sadness. Most people experience temporary sadness in response to specific events or losses. However, when this sadness persists for an extended period, with symptoms that occasionally subside but often return, it's referred to as chronic depression or dysthymia. While considered a milder form of depression, dysthymia can persist for years, leaving those affected feeling consistently unhappy.

What Causes Dysthymia?

The precise cause of chronic depression is not yet understood. However, certain factors are associated with dysthymia, including high levels of stress, imbalances in brain chemicals, and hereditary factors.

What are the Symptoms of Chronic Depression?

The symptoms of chronic depression are similar to that of major depression. They include:

• Difficulty falling asleep
• Fatigue or low energy levels
• Feelings of worthlessness or excessive guilt
• Loss of interest and enjoyment in activities
• Noticeable physical and mental sluggishness
• Changes in appetite
• Difficulty making decisions, concentrating, or thinking clearly
• Persistent thoughts of death or suicide

I haven't really thought of the last bullet, though. Well, not in many years... This year will be different, and I say it's a MUST. I decided it's best to do something about it — depression doesn't just go away on its own. So, I plan to take these steps to combat depression:

1. I'll incorporate a daily 15- to 30-minute brisk walk, dance, or bike ride into my routine. Regular physical activity can significantly improve mood and overall well-being.
2. I'll prioritize proper nutrition by consuming plenty of fruits and vegetables and maintaining regular meals. Certain foods like papaya, tuna, apples, liver, peaches, mangoes, broccoli, strawberries, whole grains, grapefruit, guava, and whole milk can positively impact mood and energy.
3. I'll pinpoint the situations contributing to my depression and confide in supportive friends or use my online journal as a therapeutic outlet.
4. I'll actively engage my creativity and sense of fun, helping to unlock positive emotions. Whether it's enjoying time at Timezone with my nephews or finding humor in a funny movie, laughter will be key to brightening my mood.
5. I'll practice patience and focus on recognizing the good aspects of life. Reflecting on my strengths, gifts, and blessings will help me persevere through the healing process, knowing that depression takes time to overcome. This too shall pass.

Chronic depression may cast its shadow, but I'm armed with a plan to let the light back in. It's a process that requires patience and self-compassion. But I'm ready to embrace it, armed with the knowledge that this too shall pass.

Here's to brighter days ahead, resilience, and the unwavering belief that we can conquer even the toughest battles.

A bit of Conundrum

Take risks:  if you win, you will be happy; if you lose, you will be wise.

What if we could turn back the dial. Maybe if not for ourselves, but maybe for someone else. Turn back the dial to a time when laughter was easy, and worries and cares were a million miles away. Turn the dial back to that moment right before the pain began. When innocence was lost. What if.

Sometimes i wonder what if this would have been different with us. What if we didn't live so far? What if we hadn't of lied? What if things have changed? But then I realize that I could be here for days going through all the what if's and just have to face reality.

What if it’s time. To break free. Free. Really free. What if. We could really grasp what that means. Then live it.