Irony

Oh shoot! It's really a f*cking day! It's like everything messed up.

First, just received a message from kermit. They'll be back in manila tomorrow. Unavoidable circumstances happened so we won't go to Subic. Duh! I was alone last Christmas. That only means that i'll be all by myself welcoming new year. I was so excited to be with him and his family. That excitement gave me sleepless nights. Now, i'd spend the holiday alone! Why it always hafta be like that? Good Heavens! I'm showered with bad luck.

Second, when i got to the office, i just found out that out of 3 teams that i'm handling, 2 of 'em were off. Bullsh*t!!! So, how would I meet the scan goal? Should I create some sort of miracles?

Third, when i decided to scan, my pc isn't working properly. NICE system's still down. Great!!! So, how am i suppose to monitor calls? Luckily, Wacks from IT helped me out. He installed screenshot on some of the agent's pcs. And even configured the hardphone so i can do remote monitoring. Apparently, it didn't work out well. I settled for live monitoring instead.

I'm not complaining about how my day started! Well, not to reiterate about the bad luck. Things happen when you least expect it. Just received a heads up from Jill. I won't go into details yet. Perhaps, it really made my day bright.

Our B-O-S-S

"Through ups and downs... Rain or shine... Til we have our own families... We'll always be friends!" I just heard this line from a new found friend. It didn't make an impact at all. It brings me back old memories. Memories of friendship that I thought would never end. Bawat oras sama-sama! Where did the friendship go? In just a zap, it's gone! We called ourselves BOSS. We had good times. Bad times were all endured all for the sake friendship.

"There are so many instances when i'm alone and memories are flashing back to me. Who can ever forget all of those sleepless H. Santos nights. Those funny antics that we do together... Those middle-of-the-night-eat-outs... Those no-one-can-sleep conversations... Yes, there were indeed sad and trying moments. Nevertheless, it is nothing to what we have discovered, to what we have endured. I'll always cherish those moments."

I felt your sadness, your pain, your glory! Your victory was my victory! Your failure was my failure. You were not just my friends... you were once my family.

You guys got hurt.. so did i! Time will heal the wounds... As to when, i dunno! But, I'll keep hoping.

just another ordinary day

As for Aian's request, I posted our picture together. This picture was taken when we were still new with AT&T. You'd never imagined how we met. His boyfriend is my friend and also our probationary member in Teatro Lasalliana. It was the second day in ACS when i saw him. Once you see Aian, you'll never mistaken him as bisexual coz he has manly gestures. So, when he said that his bf's name is Jonex. I just scream with all my might "SARMIENTO???" Then he said yes. So, there.. we became friends! Last Christmas, he just gave a big white scented candle from bright ideas. There's a story behind that candle but i'm not gonna divulge it. It's a shame on my part... hehehehe... Sounds interesting huh?! La lang, kwento ko lng! Coz he's so kulet! He's just asking how come our pic isn't here in my blog. See?!!

Oh well! It's a very tiring day! NICE system isn't working pretty well. Most of the recordings are not finished! It's like you hafta guess what happened to the call. Shoot!!!

Too bad! I'm starting to get a migraine. I should get outta here!

Miss India

Raj asked me why am i so happy and alive today. Yet, it's just a cover up. The truth of the matter is.. i really wanna tremble down of boredom. I never felt so empty til now. I'm trying to condition myself that i'm happy. But the sense of longing still exists. My family went to province. They'd be back after new year. I was thinking if i'd go home but that would just make me more empty.

Well, i made some modifications in my blog. See?! It has its new look! Thanks to Gian. i took so much of his time to help me. He's such a good looking guy with a good heart. (Wow!) mwah mwah mwah. Thanks so much dude! you just made my day!

I was with Ron's team at Sbarro's. It was his treat. That's what it takes to be part of the team wherein the team manager is really munificent. hehehe... I was monitoring calls. And the last thing i knew, they're dragging me to Glorietta. It was a hella fun! Now I'm thinking!!! Isn't it a bribe or something? (peace Ron!)

obssession

I'm not fond of reading books unless it's motivational like "Follow your heart" by Andrew Matthews. Uhm! Actually, there are 2 books that i really like: "Anne Frank" and "Les Miserables" by Victor Hugo. I dunno! But, i was really inspired of Dan Brown's Da Vinci Code. Thanks to Raj & Jill. They insisted me to read it. And you bet! Like everybody else who read it, i became curious. I surfed the internet about Holy Grail and The Last Supper. And i was so amazed after researching. The next thing i knew, i was reading Angels & Demons which he also wrote. Dammit! I should've read it first! It was Robert Langdon's first adventure. Because of that obsession to his books, I just finished reading Digital Fortress. It's really fast paced, very informative and full of excitement. The twist of the story is really remarkable that of his other books. Yup! I'm planning to read his Deception Point... and IT'S A MUST!

Xmas buff!

Yesterday, me and Maya went to divi to buy gifts. Though, we didn't stay longer than we used to. It turned out as a nightmare. I wonder where the hell those people came from. Literally, we couldn't move. Sidewalks were occupied. Maya was murmur-ring that they should be home and wait for Christmas eve. 

Life is so cruel! How i wish i can take a break! Today is Christmas yet i'm at work. I brought some gifts for my friends. I felt like i'm Miss Santa. I finally opened my blog. Damn! I forgot my password. Luckily, i was able to retrieve it just now. It took me some time to figure it out. Yeah right! Everybody from TQA's already home. I hafta stay until 11am. Now i regret why do i have to come here at 2am. Just hafta wait for an hour and i'm outta here!

my apologies

Just posted a journal yesterday about filipinos make me puke... Honestly, a friend posted it in my friendster. so, i decided to have it posted in multiply. Subsequently, after 10 hrs of sleep.. i checked my email & i got a reply.. (really dunno who the heck is he..) but i do appreciate him updating me. The truth of the matter is i had no idea to whom that f*cking article originated! It just hit me off when i read that in friendster. My apologies.. it was an honest mistake! I just removed the entry... Thanks!

So Damn High

"I never stopped thinking of you.. your memories never failed to hunt me even in my dreams.. I tried to resist but there's a force wanting me to think of you more & more each day.. Though, I don't need "E" or cocaine, you're too good enough to drive me insane.. No matter how it gets me high, you're the only one who makes me fly..no way out, cant get through.. I'm so DAMN ADDICTED TO YOU..."

Why did you hurt me so bad? Why am I still thinking of you? I should be fine now... But I know, am still NOT, and Lord knows if I will ever be...

Bed ridden

I hate it when I'm sick.. Imagine my life's like a hell in bed since Saturday noon... I didn't eat anything for the past few days (just soup)... duh?! I really hate medicines! (but of course, I was left w/ no choice but to intake 'em or else.. might caught me sleeping forever..) 

I didn't crave for anything to eat until last night... trying to get my strength back... yes doc! I'll start to drink my vitamins! hmp! I'd even bring my umbrella so i've got protection when it rains.. but pls.. I can't stop smoking.. peace!

Torn

Again.. I'm shattered into pieces.. Once again life twirls down hill...

You know what I hate about? 

It's being confused not knowing what to do running around in circles until you get dizzy and fall... 

Might be caught up.. 

Might be down dead! 

Might stray me into infidelity.. 

Is that what the rock bottom of life is....?


It's killing me once again.. though, I would want to anguish it... I'm still wanting the pain.

The misery I felt years ago. 

Why I'm still feeling the pain? 

Why I'm still longing? 

I'm totally disturbed!!! 

I hope, in chaos.. I may find peace.. 

In the darkness, I may find the light.. 

Hatred? May this lead me back to love... 

Will this lead me back to you?

You were my life.. And, you took it away from me.

When confusion strikes

This is the one of the most challenging

day of my life

caught in amidst of confusion

 I was seeking for the light...

Will I ever make it through?