From Your Annoying Half

Happy Birthday to the man of my life, the king of my dreams, and the mate of my soul!!!

Disagreements and arguments are inevitable. But with each year I will love you even more. Remember that your best years are still ahead of you and I will be there for every up and down and in between.

We love you so much! Happy Birthday Niji!

From your Annoying Wife. 🤣😂🤣

Start Changing Your Mindset and Start Making Money Online

The biggest risk is not taking any risk... In a world that changing really quickly, the only strategy that is guaranteed to fail is not taking risks.

- Mark Zuckerberg

Lately, I have been getting many inquiries about how to make money online. Is it really legit? Is it worth it? How did you do it?

Well, I have been making money online since 2009 when I started to be a freelancer. I quit working as a Senior Operations Manager in a call center somewhere in Ortigas to go fulltime freelancer. YES! It was really a risk I had to take, and I never regret that decision I made years ago.

If I made it, you too CAN! It's all about your mindset! And how much efforts you put into it. It wasn't an easy ride. But I'm telling you it was worth all the challenges.

Aside from the fact that I have learned so many skills, I also came to a realization about many different ways on how to make money by just using your PC and of course, you must have a reliable internet connection.

SUCCESS doesn't happen overnight! You really have to work hard for it!

Over my next blog posts, I will share different tips on how to make money online. I hope this will help you to get started. Whether you have a full-time job, looking for an extra income or you want to venture into the freelance world - I hope my tips will help you.

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Letter to my Better Half

To my ex bf, bestfriend and rockstar husband... Happy Happy Birthday!!!

There are tough times and there may be more ahead of us. But one thing is for sure, I'll stay with you thru the bad and the worst! I appreciate everything you do for our family. We may have disagreements at times but that really make us stronger everyday. Your transformation from being a hippie-laid-back-rockstar dude to being a responsible husband and father but still a rockstar, at least to me..is really a wonderful blessing.

I have million things to be grateful for... Thank you for carrying my things, being my commute buddy, spongebob, comedian and weirdo friend even way way back...

For being a critic whenever I sing out of tune...

For always cheering me up when I'm so stressed out with anything, most likely for dealing with my post partum blues...

For putting our family first before your passion to perform (I promise my full pledge support let's wait when the babies grow a little older)...

For all the sleepless and tiring nights from my cravings to changing nappies and feeding our babies...

For your undying support in almost everything including weight gain, hahaha, we'll be back in shape again so let's continue working on that...

For all our quality time dining out, movie time, road and sound tripping...

For your music, marvel, extra terrestrial, greek mythology influence...

For your patience and understanding all the time whenever my Bratty mode is on...

For all your gifts from small to expensive ones...

For being the best you can be to support our family...

For always making me feel I'm the BEST, the ONLY ONE, most beautiful, sexiest and smartest...

For having your heart, your mind, your soul, your music and your name...

For being my Shrek if I'm that Fiona...

I promise you too, we're going to share the rest of our lifetime and forever... Again, happy birthday! I love you so much niji!

100 Truths

WHAT WAS YOUR: 
1. last beverage > Water
2. last phone call> Ella 
3. last text message > Ryan
4. last song you listened to > I Choose You by Mario 
5. last time you cried > Months ago


HAVE YOU EVER: 
6. dated someone twice > Yes
7. been cheated on > Yes
8. kissed someone & regretted it > No
9. lost someone special > Yes. It's been a decade  now.
10. been depressed > Yes, most of the times.
11. been drunk and threw up > Been drunk, yes! Threw up? Not these days...


LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS: 
12. Pink
13. Powder blue
14. Light green


THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2012) 
15. Made a new friend > Yes
16. Fallen out of love > YES
17. Laughed until you cried > No.
18. Met someone who changed you > I think so... 
19. Found out who your true friends were > Definitely.
20. Found out someone was talking about you > What's new? Haters are everywhere.
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list > Yes.
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life > Everyone
23. How many kids do you want to have > 1 boy and 1 girl
24. Do you have any pets > No, I'm not a pet lover.
25. Do you want to change your name > Yes, in my next life I want it to be...
26. What did you do for your last birthday > Cried.
27. What time did you wake up today > Past 1pm. Late for work.
28. What were you doing at midnight last night > On the phone and chatting with Niji from evening til morning. Ayieeeeee
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for > Liars to change. Haters to be good or nice to me.
30. Do you have plants > None 
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? > To rewind, pause, fast forward.
32. What are you listening to right now? > I choose you by Mario
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? > No, I don't have a friend by that name as I can remember.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now? > Nothing. I let go of all the things that will make me mad. Laughter is the best medicine.
35. Most visited webpage > Facebook, Paypal, Company system tools
36. What's your real name> SECRET
37. Nicknames? > Kitty way back highschool. ICE in College.
38. Relationship Status > Happily committed
39. Zodiac sign > Pisces
40. Male or female > Female
41. Elementary > NCMLC
42. Middle School > N/A 
43. High school > NCMLC
44. Hair colour? > Medium Copper brown cellophane
45. Long or short? > Long
46. Height? > 5'4
47. Do you have a crush on someone? > So highschool question.
48: What do you like about yourself? > I'm SIMPLY ME. I easily forgive. I easily forget esp if non-sense.
49. Piercing? > No plans.
50. Tattoos? > I'd love to
51. Righty or lefty? > Righty


FIRSTS : 
52. First surgery > A decade ago CS section
53. First piercing > None
54. First best friend > Queenie
55. First sport you joined > No sports at all
56. First vacation > Can't remember. But if out of the country, it's in HK.
58. First pair of trainers > ???


RIGHT NOW 
59. Eating > Just had dinner
60. Drinking > Not as of the moment
61. I'm about to > Issue bonus OT adjustments. 
62. Listening to > Old Friend - Early Rise
63. Waiting on > To get sleepy


YOUR FUTURE : 
64. Want kids? > Of course
65. Get Married > It's complicated
66. Career? > Happy with my career so far.


WHICH IS BETTER : 
67. Lips or eyes > Both
68. Hugs or kisses > Both
69. Shorter or taller > Taller
70. Older or Younger > Same age
71. Romantic or spontaneous > Both
72. Nice butt or nice legs > Nice butt, hahaha
73. Sensitive or loud > Sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship > Of course, relationship.
75. Trouble maker or hesitant > Hesitant


HAVE YOU EVER : 
76. Kissed a stranger > Hell, no!!!
77. Drank hard liquor > Yes, way way back.
78. Lost glasses/contacts > Yes
79. Sex on first date > NO!!!
80. Broken someone's heart > YES!!!
81. Had your own heart broken > Yes. 
82. Been arrested > No.
83. Turned someone down > Yes, many times.
84. Cried when someone died > Yes. :( 
85. Fallen for a friend? > Yes.


DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 
86. Yourself > Of course, Yes!
87. Miracles > Maybe.
88. Love at first sight > It's crazy. This do not happen. 

89. Heaven >  Yes.
90. Santa Claus > No.
91. Kiss on the first date > Yes.
92. Angels > Yes.


ANSWER TRUTHFULLY: 
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time > Does fling count? 
95. Did you sing today? > Yes.. I sing all the time.
96. Ever cheated on somebody? > oh-oh....huhuhu.... 
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? > 10 yrs.
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it > March.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? > I believe I can handle. 
100. Posting this as 100 truths? > Yes definitely!

Yesterday, I Cried

Yesterday, I cried.

I came home, went straight to my room, sat on the edge of my bed, kicked off my shoes, unhooked my bra, and I had myself a good cry.

I'm telling you, I cried until my nose was running all over the silk blouse I got on sale.

I cried until my ears were hot.

I cried until my head was hurting so bad that I could hardly see the pile of soiled tissues lying on the floor at my feet.

I want you to understand, I had myself a really good cry yesterday.

Yesterday, I cried, for all the days that I was too busy, or too tired, or too mad to cry.

I cried for all the days, all the ways, and all the times I had dishonored, disrespected, and disconnected myself from myself, only to have it reflected back to me in the ways others did to me the same things I had already done to myself.

I cried for all the things, I had given, only to have them stolen; for all the things I had asked for that had yet to show up; for all the things I had accomplished, only to give them away, to people in circumstances, which left me feeling empty, and battered and plain old used.

I cried because there were really does come a time when the only thing left for you to do is cry.

Yesterday, I cried.

I cried because little boys get left by their daddies; and little girls get forgotten by their mommies; and daddies don't know what to do, so they leave; and mommies get left, si they get mad.

Yesterday, I cried.

I cried because I hurt. I cried because I was hurt.

I cried because hurt has no place to go except deeper into the pain that caused in the first place, and when it gets there, the hurt wakes you up.

I cried because it was too late. I cried because it was time.

I cried because my soul knew that I didn't know that my soul knew everything I needed to know.

I cried soulful yesterday, and it felt so good.

It felt so very, very bad.

In the midst of my crying, I felt freedom coming,

Because

Yesterday, I cried with an agenda.

Love, Love, Love Hater!!!

Dear Hater, 


How is it that you constantly talk about my flaws non-stop? You try to judge every aspect about me. You monitor my bad habits, and take note of my irregular tendencies.. You blatantly discuss my attitude, scrupulously insult my intelligence and undeniably watch out my every move. You analyze my life - every aspect of it! Put meaning to every blog entry I post. Please... everything is not about "someone else". You know what you failed to realize? It's knowing that you're naive to the fact that You Wanna Be Exactly Like Me! 


Okay, how about you just say you're envious.. Don't lie... Denial is a form of weakness. Infact I admire your diligence checking up on my posts daily where you obtain all the information about me - my thoughts perhaps. I am misunderstood from every perception. I don't debate on my past, or who I will be tomorrow, or play heads heads or tails. This is Who I Am, Who I've Been, and Who I Will Always Be. There's no front. I'm not perfect, Never Have Been, and Never Will Be. I fuck up and accept my imperfections and bounce back. So, while you pointlessly waste your insignificant time hating me.. At the same time you're doin' a great job motivating me. 


Sincerely, 
Me, Myself & I 


P.S. Two Thumbs Up To All My Haters 

After much pondering, I’ve come to the conclusion that it’s because haters secretly love me. There is NO OTHER possible explanation as to why they would hunt me down in such a way AND take the time to read my blog AND take the time to comment on it.  So shocks, I’ll take it as a compliment. I'm so flattered!!!

Peace be with you all!!! Keep up the good work! Again, it motivates me. 

An Open Prayer

On this day in your life, remember this: a decision remains a mere wish until you take that first irreversible step. You might convince yourself that you've already made up your mind, that nothing can deter you, but what happens when taking that step forward feels riskier than taking a step back? 

It's during these moments that you need to stay committed to your path, especially when the going gets tough. Sometimes, the right thing to do is to embrace that irreversible step, the one after which there's no turning back. And right now, it's one of those times.

With these thoughts, I offer a heartfelt prayer:

For My Family: May they walk alongside me in this journey with minimal hardships, for they bear no responsibility for the circumstances that brought us here. They are the reason I strive to better myself, to provide a brighter future for them. God, guide me with unwavering peace and understanding on this path.

For My Haters: I've learned to pray for my adversaries. Not for how they've wronged me, but for their lives, their families, and the challenges they face. I prayed with sincerity, not because I am inherently good, but because God is good, holy, and righteous, and I love Him.

Today, I still wrestle with inner turmoil. Today, I'm reminded that my actions speak louder than my words, teaching those around me what I truly believe. Today, I grapple with that lingering sense of loneliness in the depths of my being. Today, I acknowledge I have much to learn and transform, much in need of the redemptive touch of a Mighty God.

Yet today, I continue to surrender to the One who is a sanctuary. The One who sees the ultimate outcome, no matter how challenging it may be for me, the One I trust wholeheartedly. Today, I persist in praying for my adversaries, as fervently as I know how, recalling the words of Matthew 5:44: "Love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who spitefully use you and persecute you."

For Me, Myself & I: Strengthen my trust in You, Lord. Enable me to trust myself as I place my trust in You. When things don't unfold as I expect and my efforts seem fruitless, grant me the resilience to persevere with hope, even in the face of past failures. Help me trust in myself as I trust in You, drawing upon Your strength within me to persist and give my best.

Guide me away from doubt and frustration when I falter in discerning and acting in my best interest. Free me from the burden of judging the righteousness of Your plan in my life. Teach me to admit that I don't always know what's best for myself. You've promised to make my crooked paths straight if I place my trust in You in all my ways. Allow me to rely not just on Your promise, but also on the righteousness of trusting in You.

Show me how to embody Your desire for mercy over perfection in my life. Lead me to place my hope in You by trusting in the rightness and goodness of whatever You guide me to do.

Help me celebrate You, not only in the heavens or among the nations, but also within the narrative of my life. Enable me to trust myself as I trust in You, so that I may let go of self-doubt and walk by faith rather than by sight.

Amen.

Perhaps, it's time to open my doors wide, to trust and unveil my soul. It's time to move forward with sincerity, to love and be loved once more.