Confessions of a Social Introvert: July 2011

Friday, July 29, 2011

Unsent Love Letter from a Lost Soul

“I know that I hurt you. It does not change the way I feel about you, and the fact that I still see us together for the rest of our lives. I’m willing to do everything in my power to rebuild your trust in me.”

To You,

I’m sorry I blew up on you. There were so many things going through my mind and I’ve just been so stressed out and stuff and I know that isn’t right or fair to you. But I just lost it. I couldn’t even stop once I started going and it wasn’t your fault. I was in the wrong, completely. So I’m sorry. I hate when I get like that and just go all nutty. You should know how much I love you and appreciate you. Most of the time I walk around thinking about how lucky I am to have someone like you in my life and how I take that for granted once in a while. I don’t blame you for being mad, I would have been too.

What it comes down to is that I really don’t deserve you. I don’t. I don’t deserve how good you are to me, how you look me in the eye and could stare for hours. I don’t deserve all the late night treats you cook for me. I don’t deserve any of it. But I am grateful. I thank God every day for sending me someone so wonderful. You are my greatest gift.

Thank you for all your patience with me and your uncanny ability to realize that I'm just emotional or irrational and somehow shake it all off. You gotta teach me how to let go like you do. I love you so much and I am so sorry if I hurt you. I will continue to try to keep my emotions and stress under control. Even more, I’ll try to not take them out of you when it’s not your problem and you didn’t have anything to do with it. Thank you for listening and loving me so much.

Lost forever,

Letter of moving on

"Judge not that ye be judged. For with what judgment ye judge, ye shall be judged, what measure you mete it shall be measured to you again." Matthew 7:1-7.

I know my choices have been made on the basis of prayer and compassion for others. I have asked to see things from others' point of view. Then I do as I am lead to do in life.

PapaGod says if you turn your back on those in need, He will turn His back on you in your time of need.

Now I ask PapaGod to eliminate the deep bitterness and anger that I have allowed into my heart because of your actions. I ask that PapaGod bless you in your life.

I ask that PapaGod will help me to rise above this to a higher level. I ask that He will not allow me to dwell in a life of bitterness and anger. I ask to dwell in a life of abundance and love.

I'm letting go of all the hatred I have in my heart. As this is the last piece of emotion I will ever feel. For tomorrow awaits a new day for me...

Thursday, July 28, 2011

Infatuation vs. Real Love

Oh, the feeling of being in love! When you know that you know it’s right! It’s got to be one of life’s greatest highlights. When it’s so awesome that it’s difficult to put into words… Just to hear someone say, “I’m in love,” with the tone of their voice floating with emotion. There’s a sparkle in their eye that proves the fireworks have gone off. When they can finally say, “I’ve never felt this way about anyone else before, and I know I never will again.”

Love, in part, is a feeling. The Greeks used the word eros to describe romantic love. Believe it or not, the Bible encourages eros. The entire book of the songs of Solomon is devoted to honoring marriage, and how vital romantic love, sex, and intimacy are within the confines of marriage. I am tired of people putting down this part of love. Although not complete love, physical attraction to another is part of falling in love. Love is also a deep commitment for the betterment of the other person – A vow to unconditionally accept and cherish this person, even when the conditions change, even when you feel like leaving.

Commitment and affection are needed to build a relationship that lasts. Try saying to someone that you weren’t attracted to them, but that you were choosing to date them, and promised to be committed to them because that’s what real love is. I think it’s clear to see that’s not love (and the other person wouldn’t feel loved). The flip side, which isn’t love either, is having just the feeling good part of love.

Real love will work in good times, and in health, and if things get better. But love based on feelings alone will never endure the bad times, sickness, or if things got worse. Maybe that’s why 52% of marriages end in divorce. I will bet that when they fell in love, they thought it would be forever.

What went wrong? What happened? Was it really love? What is love anyway? And how do you know if you are in love or only infatuated? Infatuation has been defined as “being completely carried away by affections,” or “the emotional impulse of love untested by time or circumstance.” When the feeling part of love is so strong that it blinds us to reality – that is infatuation. Ray Short puts it this way; “Remember infatuation is a vaccine that immunizes you against seeing anything wrong with the other person. You tend to put your beloved on a pedestal, a paragon of perfection. You live in a sort of Romantic Disneyland.”

Real love is not blind. Real love always does a reality check. If it does not pass, it will not last. It is possible to experience all the emotions and affections in a relationship, and not be real love. Real, complete love is forever. Falling in real love includes attraction; staying in real love takes
commitment.

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Amazing YOU

Have you ever asked yourself:

Who am I?

Why am I here?

What is my purpose in this world?

What can I do to change?

Many people live by allowing life to define who we are. They exist plainly – wandering the world with no sense of purpose, passions, dreams, and without any goals or even desires.

We were all uniquely and carefully made with a divine purpose; nobody can be who you are, and you cannot be anyone else. When we were born, we were all granted a unique thumbprint. No two thumbprints are exactly the same. As such, you are special, and you stand out from the rest. There is something unique and great about you that you haven’t recognized.

Think it over... What are your dreams, goals, desires? You are YOU... And YOU ARE SPECIAL!!!

Simplicity

Life is simple.

Everything happens for you, not to you.

Everything happens at exactly the right moment,

neither too soon nor too late.

You don't have to like it - it's just easier if you do.

If you have a problem,

it can only be because of your unquestioned thinking.

How do you react when you believe

that the past should have been different?

You scare yourself stuck, because what you resist persists.

You get to keep your stressful world,

a world that doesn't exist except in your imagination;

you get to stay in the nightmare.

It hurts to oppose reality,

because in opposing reality,

you are opposing your very self...

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Dare to be Different!!!

Though people are often frightened to strive against the wind, take that giant step and instigate change. Start with yourself. Love every little piece of that reflection you see - the face in the mirror - which epitomizes the image and likeness of God. The Man upstairs never creates something hideous in His eyes. The people around you only give malicious meanings to anything that is unacceptable to their tastes and preferences, but what makes their judgment more credible than your own?

So, practice self-love and positive affirmations. Love begins within you. When you begin to picture yourself as beautiful, everything else follows. People will start to see you in a whole new light, since you radiate so much optimism. Like attract like - it’s contagious.

Dear PapaGod

Dear PapaGod,

Please free the 'knots' entangled in my mind, my heart, and my life.

Banish the have-nots, the can-nots, and the do-nots residing in my mind.

Wipe away the will-nots, may-nots, and might-nots that try to nest in my heart. Liberate me from the could-nots, would-nots, and should-nots that obstruct my life.

And above all, dearest PapaGod, I implore you to eliminate from my mind, my heart, and my life all the am-nots that have hindered me, especially the belief that I am not good enough.

Forever Your Child,