The Sunday Currently vol. 15

Recapping the week

This week was full of small dramas. RFID glitches. Forgotten lunches. A random “Let’s break up” message from a mystery girl named Chloe. Then relief, laughter, lessons. My youngest son admitted it was just a dare from that Chloe, and he doesn’t know her. Then, almost shyly, told me he likes a girl. I am happy that he can open up to me, at the same time worried for him to get heartbroken real soon. 

By midweek, there was a fight with my kiddos. Some apologies. Also a quiet talk in the car about emotions and crushes—about not rushing, not giving everything away.

Parenting really is a series of car rides and confessions. Moments of sudden panic followed by soft recovery. You learn to stay calm. You learn to listen. 

Busy week with my secret project — code, chores, drop-offs, pick-ups, repeat. The days blur between creation and care, chaos and calm. But maybe this is what building something real looks like — messy, full, alive. 

CURRENTLY

Reading

Messages in my Messenger. Haven’t been able to check in since morning. Been busy with the house chores, laundry and my secret project.

Writing

This blog entry as my way of grounding myself and processing the week.

Listening

I can’t explain the sounds. But it’s coming from my eldest son’s iPad as he is playing Roblox at the moment.

Thinking

How what to launch first. I have so many ideas and plans about my secret project and the ideas and momentum just don’t stop. New ideas and concepts just keep coming in.

Smelling

Smell of Calla Sunny blue fabric conditioner which amazingly smells really good. I’m still doing the laundry.

Wishing

For wisdom on how to implement and launch my project in a cost-efficient and effective way.

Hoping

To launch by the end of this month. 

Wearing

An anime loose white shirt paired with black and striped boxers shorts. 

Loving

My bed. Feels good to lay down from everything I’ve accomplished since morning.

Wanting

To be able to speed up the development of my secret project. There’s so many things to work on. And I do it just by myself.

Needing

Been craving for bowl of hot and spicy ramen… or maybe Lola Nena’s cheesy donuts since last week. Ordering from Grab now. I deserve some treats.

Feeling

Seriously manifesting that success and wealth find me this month.

Note to Self

Take it one task, one prayer, one heartbeat at a time. You’re not behind — you’re in the middle of becoming. Success and peace are already finding their way to you.

The Sunday Currently vol. 14

Recapping the Week

Started the week with a bit of drama from the kids. I received a message from my eldest’s adviser about his academic performance, and it honestly stung. I had to reach out to his teachers to check if he could still submit the projects he missed. We sat down and talked about it. He was remorseful and promised to bounce back.

We made space for some light moments too, a couple of lunch outs at Max’s, and their first time at Vikings. Small wins and comfort food always help lighten the mood.

CURRENTLY

Reading

Design and layout plans for my secret project.

Writing

This blog entry as my way of grounding myself and processing the week.

Listening

Something from my youngest son’s Apple Music playlist. I’m not sure what, but it’s surprisingly catchy.

Thinking

How to launch my secret project before this month ends, and how to keep everything on track.

Smelling

Downy French Lavender fabric conditioner. I just finished doing the laundry.

Wishing

For wisdom on how to implement and launch my project in a cost-efficient and effective way.

Hoping

Still manifesting our Japan travel. I even set a photo of Tokyo Disneyland as my homescreen wallpaper to keep the vision alive.

Wearing

A light green family shirt and Aztec boxer shorts, the unofficial Sunday uniform.

Loving

This chill Sunday. I actually accomplished a lot today from house chores to refining my business plan.

Wanting

A long, uninterrupted vacation. Just time to rest without thinking about work or business.

Needing

A bowl of hot and spicy ramen… or maybe Lola Nena’s cheesy donuts. But I’m trying to cut back on carbs and sweets. Keyword: trying.

Feeling

Hopeful. Seriously manifesting that success and wealth find me this month.

Note to Self

I am taking one step at a time. Just 1% better each day. Small, consistent changes lead to big shifts.

The Sunday Currently vol. 13

Recapping the week

Kids have been home all week because of the typhoon. I wish I could say it’s been a chill week, but with two almost-teens under one roof, there’s always a little drama especially about screen time. Still, even in the arguments, THEY KNOW and I KNOW how much we love and value each other. ❤️ 

Lately, I’ve been sneaking in some kilig breaks by stalking MikBrent’s socials. They’ve been my tiny dose of smiles in between the chaos.

CURRENTLY 

Reading

My blogs. Gosh! I am so overdue. I haven’t updated this blog for months.

Writing

Secret project. I don’t want to announce yet. But claiming!

Listening

Here I am To Worship. Yes, I have been listening to worship songs lately. And I found peace and solace.

Thinking

How to effectively execute my vision. I can’t even be consistent posting blogs. Hopefully my system works. Will see this coming week.

Smelling

Smell of creamy spinach pizza left on my hands. We just had pizza and pasta for dinner.

Wishing

Manifesting and claiming a pay increase and bonus 3x my current salary. Money flows to me easily, abundantly and consistently.

Hoping

Still praying and manifesting that we can finally make our dream trip to Japan. Manifesting that our Japan dream becomes a reality!

Wearing

Today's fashion choice: a pastel blue shirt paired with comfy pastel orange floral boxers.

Loving

Thanks to the kids being on a long vacation. No school rush or early morning chaos. 

Wanting

Successful execution of my biz plans. And oh, I need to continue writing blogs. At least my Sunday Currently volume.

Needing

I'm seriously needing some antioxidants and a good dose of vitamin C. Also need a facial and lashes. Just a pamper time with LONG body massage.

Feeling

Manifesting something is destined for me. I trust that there are bigger and better things waiting for me, all in their own perfect time.

Diary of a Socially Exhausted Introvert

There are days when I come home after meetings, school events, or long video calls and feel completely drained. It's not that I dislike people; I actually enjoy talking, leading meetings, and joking with friends. However, being socially engaged takes a toll on me. It leaves my head buzzing, my chest feeling heavy, and all I want is some quiet.

If you are an introvert, you understand this. The lack of stimulation isn’t just a preference; it’s essential for survival. Social exhaustion is more than just tiredness; it feels like a shutdown. I get a mental fog, my body feels frozen, and even around loved ones, I struggle to connect until I’ve had time to recover.

For a long time, I thought that needing to take a break meant I was weak or lazy. Now, I realize it’s about self-care. My best ideas come after some stillness, not during burnout.

Here are the ways I recharge: 

- journaling, even if it’s just a single line

- small solo rituals like enjoying coffee, doing my skincare, or taking a quiet walk

- logging off while scrolling, which feels like another demand

- connecting with nature and moving my body

- lighting a candle and enjoying a few stolen minutes of quiet

In a world that values loud voices, introverts offer depth, thoughtfulness, and listening. These gifts can only thrive if we take time to rest without apology. If you’re like me—who sometimes leaves early, prefers staying home, or craves silence after a long day—remember that you aren’t broken. You’re introverted, and it’s important to protect your energy.

I Didn’t Enable, I Survived

Today is moving day. And yet, I don’t feel the rush of emotions I expected. No breakdown, no overwhelming sense of relief—just numbness.

Maybe it’s exhaustion. Maybe it’s self-protection. Maybe it’s my body shielding me from the emotions that will come later.

But I do know one thing: I am done just surviving.

The moment I started packing my kitchen appliances, he left. No words. No acknowledgment. No confrontation. Just like he always does.

For years, this is how it has been. He comes and goes as he pleases. No explanations. No accountability. No consideration for anyone but himself. And after years of walking on eggshells, I eventually stopped asking.

I did the same. I left whenever I wanted. I stopped explaining. I stopped waiting. Because what was the point?

And when we did talk, I learned to stay silent. Because silence was safer than the yelling. Safer than the cursing. Safer than the unbearable words he threw whenever he pleased.

And for a long time, I asked myself, did I enable this?

But today, I finally understand:I didn’t enable him. I survived him. I Will Not Carry the Weight of His Actions. He became who he is on his own. I did not make him this way.

I am not responsible for his lack of effort. I am not responsible for his lack of growth. I am not responsible for how he chooses to handle this.

I spent years swallowing my anger, my pain, my frustration, just to keep the peace. But now, I know, peace isn’t something I should have had to beg for.

So if he wants to walk away without a word? Let him. If he wants to pretend this isn’t happening? Let him.

Because I am no longer waiting for an apology. I am no longer waiting for him to change. I am no longer waiting for something that was never mine to fix.

Today Is About Moving Forward, Not Looking Back. My mother-in-law begged me not to go. That hurt. But my mother reminded me: Today, I focus on myself and my kids.

So that’s exactly what I’m doing.

• I took the day off work.
• I let myself sleep without guilt.
• I let the helpers do the packing.
• I am taking this one moment at a time.

Because this day is not about him. It is about me walking toward a life where I am no longer surviving but finally, truly living.

Baby Angel

Grief is strange. It doesn’t always arrive loudly; sometimes, it lingers in the quiet moments, in the middle of the chaos, when life is moving too fast to even stop and feel.

Today is one of those days. A day that carries both love and loss. A day that reminds me of what could have been.

I wanted to pause, to do something to honor the one I lost too soon. But life kept moving, and so did I. And for a moment, I felt guilty. But then I reminded myself—love isn’t measured in grand gestures or perfect rituals. Love is carried in the heart, in the quiet remembrance, in the way we keep going even when it hurts.

One Step at a Time

 A Failed Marriage Does Not Mean Failed Motherhood. Tonight, exhaustion weighs heavier than usual. The moving preparations, the endless tasks, the struggle of keeping everything together—it’s all pressing down on me. But what about me? What about the fear sitting in my chest, whispering doubts I don’t want to hear?

I knew this was coming. I knew that once it was just the three of us, I would feel the weight of single motherhood in a way I haven’t before. But knowing and feeling are two different things.

Tonight, the fear hit hard. What if my kids struggle because they don’t have a father figure? What if I can’t give them everything they need? What if, after surviving a failed marriage, I fail at being a mother too?

It’s a terrifying thought—one that makes my exhaustion feel heavier, my worries louder, and my confidence weaker.

But Then I Remember… A failed marriage does not mean failed motherhood. I am not failing my kids by choosing peace over dysfunction. I am not failing them by showing up, even when I’m tired. I am not failing them by creating a home where they are safe, loved, and free.

A father figure isn’t what makes a child whole. Love does. Presence does. Consistency does. And I can give them all of that.

Will this journey be easy? No. Will there be nights I question myself? Absolutely. But I refuse to believe that I am not enough.

Because I am here. Because I care. Because even in my exhaustion, my love remains steady. One day at a time. One step at a time. We’ve got this.

Finding Strength in the Mess

I knew this wouldn’t be easy. Starting over never is. But today, it feels especially heavy. The errands, the packing, the endless list of things that need to be done—it’s like I’m running a marathon with no finish line in sight.

And then there’s work. A part of me wonders if I should have just taken a leave, given myself the space to breathe. But fear creeps in. What if I lose my job? What if they think I’m making excuses? What if my personal struggles start spilling over into a place where I’ve fought so hard to stay professional?

So I push forward. I drop off the kids’ lunch, I take the phone call with my mom, I juggle everything at once. And somewhere in the chaos, exhaustion settles in—not just the kind that sleep can fix, but the kind that comes from carrying too much for too long.

The hardest part isn’t the to-do list or the physical exhaustion. It’s the fear. Fear of what comes next. Fear of how I’ll hold everything together. Fear that if I stop, even for a moment, everything will fall apart.

But here’s what I’m slowly realizing: Fear doesn’t mean I’m failing. It just means I care. I care about providing for my kids. I care about keeping my independence. I care about proving—to myself, more than anyone—that I can do this. But caring doesn’t mean I have to carry everything alone.

Maybe I can’t take a full break, but I can find moments of rest. Maybe I can’t control how others perceive me, but I can remind myself that their opinions don’t define my worth. Maybe I don’t have all the answers yet, but I know this: I am not going back. I am moving forward, no matter how hard it gets.

And on the days when the weight feels unbearable, I will remind myself—this is temporary. The struggle won’t last forever. But the strength I am building right now? That will stay with me for life. I will get through this. One step at a time.

Rise and shine, my sons!!! Another day for my boys figuring out the ups and downs of growing up. Be BRAVE, but always choose your words carefully. Words are like scissors. They can cut deep and can leave a mark you may not even see. 

Life will always offer choices between right and wrong, good and bad. You’re still young. There’s plenty of time to learn, grow, and make positive changes. But the path you choose NOW shapes who YOU become. 

As your mom, nothing makes me prouder than seeing you choose kindness, honesty, and what’s right. That’s where REAL strength is found. 😘🙏🫰❤️

My TWO Cents

If you’ve been cheated on, remember this: you need to BE SMARTER than the cheater. Everyone even cheaters has a right to privacy. So, posting screenshots of private conversations online can backfire on you legally. Better yet save those screenshots as evidence and use them the right way. File a Violence Against Women (VAW) case if infidelity caused you psychological harm. Don’t waste your energy on social media DRAMA that could lead to slut-shaming or even legal trouble for you. 

Play it smart. Protect yourself. And handle it the right way to get the justice you deserve without stooping to their level. 😉

Gaslighting Is Bullying Too

As a mom, my top priority is keeping my children safe—physically, emotionally, and mentally. I’ve learned that harm isn’t always obvious. Gaslighting, for example, is a subtle yet powerful form of bullying. It’s when someone makes you doubt your own feelings or experiences, which can damage self-confidence and trust.

Bullying isn’t just about name-calling or insults or physical harm. Gaslighting can be just as damaging. And I won’t let anyone do that to my children. I will never let that slide, ever. No one should make them feel less than they are. I teach my kids to recognize this kind of behavior, and to trust their instincts. Stand their ground, and never feel guilty for doing what’s right.

It’s also important to help the gaslighter change. Correcting their behavior, getting them to own up to it, and showing they’re willing to change matters. I teach my kids that forgiveness is important, but only when it’s deserved. When someone shows they’re ready to change, that’s when we forgive.

Letter To My Sons

Dear Sons,

Life will throw challenges your way. Resilience is your superpower. Always trust your instincts and stand firm in what’s right. Never ever doubt yourself or feel bad for doing the right thing. Keep your head high and push forward because every step makes you stronger. 

You’ve got this! I’m always here cheering you on.

Love,

Mom 🥰

Power of Manifestation

It’s incredible how focusing on positive vibes and aligning with positive energy can make amazing things happen. 

Focus on what you want. Put out the good vibes. Stay positive! Manifestation works—keep at it. Then, watch how the universe comes through and work its magic! 😊❤️🙏#OnRepeat #powerofmanifestation

SONA 2024

For political junkies, #StateOfTheNationAddress is a highly anticipated event. I was eager to hear President Ferdinand Marcos Jr.'s recent #SONA2024. 

IMO, it’s important to value diverse opinions—whether you support the President or not, listening before forming judgments is crucial. Here are some key points from the SONA:

1. The 🇵🇭 remains vulnerable to climate change but has secured a spot on the Loss and Damage Fund board and is prepared for natural disasters.
2. Over ₱27.7 billion worth of smuggled goods have been seized.
3. Distribution of 100 million kgs of seeds and fertilizers to farmers, boats to fishermen, and vaccines for livestock. Development of solar-powered irrigation systems.
4. INFRASTRUCTURE projects are on schedule, with upgrades to power and internet services. Cyber defense launched, Mindanao-Visayas energy-sharing enabled, and the unified Philippine grid completed. Congress is called to amend the EPIRA law. Budget allocated for upgrading 367 bridges (2 to open this year) and nearly 1,600 roads along Maharlika Highway. MRT-7 and North-South Commuter Railway are progressing, with right-of-way issues being resolved. PNR line operational, and NAIA is being developed into a world-class airport.
5. Enhancing school and day-care feeding programs. DOST is researching nutritious food and drinks, while DOH is launching a comprehensive mental health plan. Support for health-enhancing sports programs continues.
6. Prioritizing immediate improvements in EDUCATION. Focusing on problem-solving, critical thinking, and technological reform. Emphasizing teacher quality with benefits such as teaching allowances, personal accident insurance, and special hardship allowances for public teachers in 2025. Funds allocated for an EXPANDED CAREER SYSTEM for public school teachers.
7. EMPLOYMENT rate has increased. Efforts to improve ease of doing business have shown positive effects. Implementation of a 🇵🇭 e-Visa is next in the digital transformation agenda.
8. Elevating experiential TOURISM through a multifaceted strategy, highlighting Filipino creativity and ingenuity. Development of a seafarers' hub and OFW lounge.
9. Government procurement will be streamlined under RA12009. No active guerilla fronts remain, only weakened groups. The government will honor PEACE AGREEMENTS.
10. Government will adhere to laws, REJECTING Extermination. Reporting a 79% drug conviction rate and ₱44 billion worth of illegal drugs recovered.
11. The 🇵🇭 will assert its rights in the #WestPhilippineSea. Disputes should be resolved through diplomatic channels.
12. All #POGOs are banned, with PAGCOR ordered to wind down operations. Support will be provided to those affected by job losses.

The SONA lasted over an hour, so I might have missed some points. Feel free to point out anything I overlooked.

Overall, the #SONA2024 covered many issues. However, I hope to see REAL reforms and CHANGES after this. Effective implementation of these plans is crucial. Let’s hope the government turns these promises into actions that benefit all Filipinos. 🇵🇭

Note: Let’s promote issue-based discussions and respectful exchanges of ideas! 😊😉👊

Core Memories in HongKong

Our family’s 5D4N Hong Kong trip felt short, yet full of heart. A collection of little adventures stitched together into memories we’ll carry for years.

Day 1 

We began with our Manila departure and arrival at Disney Explorers Lodge. We settled in with brunch at World of Color, then squeezed in late-night grocery shopping at Citygate Outlets. The kids were buzzing with excitement—this was just the beginning.

Day 2

It was extra special. We celebrated my eldest son’s 11th birthday at Hong Kong Disneyland. A dream unlocked. As he grows older, we see his maturity taking shape. And this trip was a reminder of how fast time moves.

Day 3

We moved hotel near the center. It took us to Royal Plaza Hotel in Mongkok, conveniently linked to MOKO Mall and the MTR. We explored The Peak Tower. We admired views from Sky Terrace 428, and laughed through Madame Tussauds. A small scare with a taxi turned into a quiet moment of gratitude when we safely walked back to the hotel.

Day 4

It should have been a quick getaway to Macau, but plans shifted because of the weather. Instead, we wandered Tsim Sha Tsui. It was juts the 3 of us. We had lunch at Jollibee. Then explored museums, the Avenue of Stars, the Clock Tower, Heritage 1811, and even the Monster Building from Transformers. The kids may have grown tired of walking, but their smiles said it was worth it.

Day 5 

It's our last day in HK. We had a laid-back, chill Monday at the hotel. The kids spent their remaining Octopus card credits at 711 while I tried to squeeze in some last-minute shopping. The kiddos wanted to swim, but pool was closed for cleaning. So Dime enjoyed the bathtub instead. We'll miss HK, we definitely plan to come back in the future.

It was a short trip. But full of core memories. The kind that last long after the luggage is unpacked. Not everything went as planned, but maybe that’s what made the memories sweeter.

Recently, I stumbled upon a viral statement from a late veteran actress about parenting. While the argument presented positive aspects of parenting, it’s important to acknowledge potential pitfalls.

Giving kids TOO MUCH freedom without guidance can be risky. It’s essential for parents to maintain authority in guiding and shaping their children’s behavior, especially when SAFETY and WELL BEING are at stake. Neglecting parental responsibilities and focusing solely on children's desires can lead to permissive parenting, resulting in confusion and lack of clear boundaries.

Parents need to balance trusting their kids with offering guidance. Trust is important, but blindly trusting without guidance can be harmful. There should be a BALANCE between allowing independence and offering support.

It's about finding the right balance between trusting your child, providing guidance, while also being confident in your parenting decisions. 

 Keep your moves silent. Don't let anyone spoil your game plan. Remember, what they don't know, they can't sabotage. 

Stay focused! Only speak when it is time to say “checkmate.”

Letter From My Breaking Point

This isn’t about you. It’s about me. 

I tend to distance myself and shut down to protect my well-being when I’m not okay.

You came into mylife when you’re 5. It was an instant feeling and connection. We may not share genes. But I poured all my love into you, treating you as my own. Time flies… I remember looking at you multiple times, but you met my gaze without blinking - you’ve lied every time. Then, the bomb. 

We’re completely shattered. So many questions flood my mind—denial turned anger. Is it a prank? It’s not happening. How was your trust manipulated? Who was there to protect and guide you? But mostly guilt, so many what ifs. Could we have done more to prevent you from being in that situation?

It’s like I want to disappear for a moment, and just wallow because pretending is tough. But I couldn’t, I have my own kids who envy you for getting extra care and attention, and they need me. 

I keep asking myself. Where were we in the process? Isn’t it normal to feel anger? Of course, we care so much. We wanted to safeguard you. But why was it rejected — invalidated? Just like that, we were given a cold shower?

So, I want to remember this someday. I want it to stick with me. The times when we felt low. The days when we felt excluded, defeated. I don't want to forget them.

I want to acknowledge this feeling every bit of it. And it's okay even if our situation isn't okay. Because of this, I accept the situation more. I’m forgiving myself for not being there with you to protect and guide you. Now I’m letting go of that guilt… So it’s okay for me to be sad. It is beyond my control. I know I did and gave my very best to be a role model to you.

I want to hold onto these moments of vulnerability. And keep reminding myself - It’s okay not to be okay. But this too shall pass.