I met him 5 years ago. It was heaven! I learned so many things. We've been through ups & downs. We've shared so much together. He was my knight & shining armor... He was my shufu... He's the originator of my serenity... He was my hope...
I loved him... I trusted him... He was my only hope to survive after that traumatic past. I thought I'd never be hurt again. Yet, this is another heartbreak.
5 years of being in love. Years that I spent waiting and hoping for the changes. I was never perfect. Though I tried to adjust, tried to meet his needs... I guess, you really can not change someone. It could only happen if there's a will.
Now, it's over! do I feel empty? No. Sad, yes! Am i still crying? Yes i do! When will i recover? That i don't know! Do i still love him? I guess but I'll never be deceived again. It's been 5 years of patience and understanding. Yes, i'm a modern martyr! Am I ready to fall in love again? Time will heal all the wounds.
Like what "sweet symphony" told me: "What you need is courage! Courage to accept the truth lies behind you so that you can see what lies ahead of you. Courage to face what is instore for you... You have lost the most expensive treasures in your life. But there are some jewelries left behind.. your friends! your job! Things that are valuable and rare! The freedom that you will experience is gonna make the pain subside. But later on, you will realize how sad and lonely to be alone. So, forgive and forget then move on..."
Yes... i hafta move, and i know i should!
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