After shock!

He was trying to reach me that night of 12/31. He'd wanted to fetch me up at my apartment. And might as well celebrate with them as they welcome new year. But, I was down dead sleeping. I remember that i was crying the whole day because I thought I'd be alone. He said that they might be back on the 1st. So, I wasn't expecting anything. I called him when i finally read his message at around 12:30am. But unfortunately, I couldn't get through. Some sort of Network busy. To make it short, i wasn't able to spent time with his family.

But then again, the year started out pretty well. At last, I had quality time with him. We just hang out at Power Plant Mall. Since it's Metro Manila Film Fest, we watched Spirit of the Glass. It's his choice. He's into horror movies. Oh God! I miss kermit! It's really mixed emotions. Being with someone you really love is far better than heaven...

There are moments of sadness, triumphs, challenges, love and hatred last 2004:

• It still pains me so much considering that my son could've been 2 years old. I tried so hard to accept that it's his 2nd death anniversary. I still cried. Only God knows when will i recover from such distress...
• I met new friends from #kolehiyo Jay-An, Wah, Budji, Anne, Jhay, etc.
• We reconciled after 7 months of painful and traumatic separation.
• I resigned in my previous company. I left my comfort zone. My friends... my so-called family! I really thought I could never get thru..
• I lost some of my friends... or should i say, it was the end of one good friendship! Never really imagined, it would end that way. Better yet, instead keeping the pain.
• Our boutique was robbed 3 times last year. My Mom & Dad recovered the loses before the end of the year. Dad, Ferdie & Pepper joined PREX with Mom's influence.
• It's already a year when Argel (Rochele's bf) left for Japan. It reminded me how she hides the sadness in her eyes.
• Scott & Eden got married. And the latter bore a pretty baby girl.
• I was able to meet new friends here in my new company like Raj, Aian, Magne, Dickie, Jill, Pam, Marbee, Toni, Lui, Jun, Homey, Marcus, Gerum, Bo, Kwinny, Sara, etc. who made me realize that life's still worthwhile.
• I finally had my break. Something that I dreamed of, and something that i really wanted to become... So, Icey started to build dreams again... Started to trust... and the journey began...

Although, the year started favorable on my part. I still look forward to a brighter one ahead...

I'll do my best to work on my New Year's Resolution. That's a sure thing! (hopefully!) harharhar!!!