I supposed to meet up with Eden, Lyra, French and Scott (it's his birthday today) at Redbox. But, I was damn busy with my journal. I read my entries dated 1995...
I was still in highschool that time. He was such a venom, yet my first love. All the pains and sufferings..I thought, I would end up with him. But, I guess it was never meant to me. I still feel the pain while reading my journal. How could that be? It's been years... We never spoke in years... There was no ending. I just flew away. No need for an explanation. He totally blew it. But how come here am I still thinking of him... Reminiscing what could have been, what might have been. Undying promises... Yet he gave me a tormenting surprise. I guess, nothing will ever beat the sweetness and bitterness of first love.
And reading put me into sleep... crying... and longing... seeking for endless answers. I never deserved to be hurt that way. Why did I have to experience such a traumatic and tormenting past? Still feel blessed knowing I'm still capable to love... But maybe not in the same way I ever was...
Just had my hair curled today. My Mom gave me a 3-in-1 hairstyler. And i really like it! It's a volumizer, straightener and curler in one. It's really cool! So, i don't have to buy each separately. It's very compact! I met up Aian, Jonex and Winnie over at Starbucks. I really couldn't get over my hair being curled so i kept on bragging it to the TQA. But Marcus said it's just wavy! Whatever! It just reminds of Kate Hudson's hair in Almost Famous. Dickie said I just imitate Tina Arena's foxy look. Duh.. people!
It's a very stressful day! I wasn't able to scan because i took over Pam's class on nesting. So, i render floorsupport for the full shift.
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